>>/3649/
> Maybe a good start would be to go easier on the quotation marks.
Yeah I know but the problem is that sometimes a term comes up to my mind and I want to write it down with several sentences then my mind starts to spit out multiple terms that almost say the same thing but completely different when you go into "semantics".
 >>/3651/
Am not on your level of creative writing and editing prowess yet. Will find my way soon and it will be beautiful don't worry.

> this is where you need to learn to propely use and transmute the energy for spiritual purposes
I left this out because I didn't feel it important but for me it's little complicated. You see you need only a very little sexual energy to kickstart the "High energy transformation process". Now if I have more sexual energy than the needed my mind goes into overdrive and what awaits me is insanity. There are more energies that need to be created and retained and "gong" just means "Intelligent energy". All energy is sorta intelligent the question is what you want to use it for.
And sperm literally "swims up" in your energy centers when it is activated. Like little energy sparks moving and activating themselves. (The weirdest when my high energy "passive guides" start to yell with my newly created self aware energies because they are not behaving and causing a havoc for fun. They are like rogue fairies and they need to realize who they are supposed to be.)

 >>/3653/
> I might also not be compatible with the idea of a higher self. My first introduction to spirituality as a kid was about going against it.
Wtf. I heard discordians are supposed to slay their HGA or sg but wtf

Also then activate the inner mental spheres of your mind then if you are your "highest form" already. Am not being sarcastic here. They are within and without the body so you have to find how it connects. How the microcosm and the macrocosm is the same. Also I created a "false" higher self once and had to murder it. But it worked for years before I did that and even attracted followers and after cleansing them everything turned 180. It was like a "Not that high"(er) self blocked the way from the "self" itself. 

 >>/3663/
> If USA is a bad copy of the Soviet Union
I remember old propaganda where the Soviets said that the west is just a retarded disorganized group that is trying to think they are "hot shit" while they are smart strong organized and the spearhead of civilization. They weren't wrong it's just they collapsed under their own weight because the commies could never agree on the way and pace they should "expand". The eternal revolution. Because if you stop revolting the evil monarch wannabe capitalists will come back! My country had a revolution against the commies and they labeled it "counter-revolution". Everyone had to learn about in school and how bad it was to rebel against the rebellion. Then when the commies went away that counter-revolution became a revolution again and it became a national holiday. 
When the Soviet union collapsed everyone thought that now it is time for the "good times". The prosperous west that everyone idolized. But the only thing that is worse than communism is the end of communism. When you have to start competing with those who did nothing but compete in their whole life. And the problem that the first things that came from the west was not the way of prosperity but the "vultures" that knew how they can exploit those that knew nothing about capitalism. This is why the "east" is somewhat resilient against globohomo. They sold lies before and they are selling lies as usual. And they don't understand how are we this "uncivilized" to not eat them up every time when they do it.