>>/4059/
> akin to being an angel
High Trypper really felt like a high priestess to me but with an influence behind it that I couldn't grasp.
> he cannot leave the body until I return
I was wondering if you were the one who had to return or there will be other Hawkets that will pretend to be the same
> If Hawket sets foot in the US, it would be a manifestation of my karma
Yeah I too had to connect to the American continent egregore and uh... yes that was a how to activate cleanse karma in a single moment kind of a lesson... It also murders machines! 

 >>/4063/
> the very soul is ripped apart
aaaaaalmost happened to me too. Thankfully there was a superlong spine or my entrails? that I could use as a "rope" that still connected the parts and pull all of them together and use the inherent soul rebirth process to heal... no not heal. Healing makes scars. This is the absolute renewal process but I am doing it step by step to remember who I am huh. Ship of Theseus but Theseus knows the old ship and the new ship because he built it and he knows it's his all the time. Who are you to say that ship is not the ship of Theseus?
Boy I thought a lot about paradoxes and how I need to apply them properly instead of using it to make a gotcha it's unsolvable idea like intellectuals use paradoxes.

> development of internal force
I sorta had to let go of the idea of internal and outer forces. So I can merge my outer force types to help my internal ones. Was too preoccupied with manifesting powers that move reality that I forgot to develop my internal powers properly. Psychic mistakes.

 >>/4064/
I too had to realize how fake and retarded this whole system is because it managed to create a very large energy block. The you have to work to earn the right to die kind of mentality. Urgh.
 >>/4066/
> fallen to a ponzi scheme
I too couldn't realize several times if I am being tricked here or this serves my development with the sigils. But then again overcoming tricks serves the development so... whatever.

 >>/4070/
Oh yeah I met groups like those. Shiva taught me how to burn them all because that will just reduce all their suffering overall. Trying to help them will just prolong their suffering and mine too. I had a lot of lessons about these kind of mentalities.

 >>/4074/
> Trypper has this sort of approach where she seems to want to help me, but more as if I'm an experiment, with nothing guaranteed
I felt this from all the posts so far.  >>/4076/
> Trypper sees things clearly from the astral, but doesn't know how to intuitively access information.
This is the best way to describe it. Yes. It was weird how he managed to throw something at me that is way too interesting for me but I couldn't even figure out just why did he do that. Especially because it seemed he is trying to teach his "flesh self" with his channeling and I thought it will just happen naturally.

 >>/4077/
> spoiler
nope. That is an awakening process also  I too had to shit myself because had to purge some ways the gut operates wrongfully 

> I am also aware of the chance that I fucked up or don't know what I'm talking about, so I'll accept whatever may come.
iktf