>>/4468/
> winter season anime already
> a new "fortress"

SHY literally has a space station above earth which airs now.
And I too encountered this "fortress" more than a year ago. 
There are so many layers of reality I am not even sure it can be called the 3 realms anymore.

> the new human souls who have begun their training as walk-ins
Never really understood the degeneracy of the west on a spiritual level and I kinda overtook the handling of the soul population of my area to avoid catastrophes so I am not seeing it the same way but my guides told me that the "souls will return" into the "other zombies" in a way.
We are finally reaching the new point slowly and steadily it seems. Wonder where it will lead.

 >>/4470/
> equivalent of me putting my hand over an open flame
Yeah I did that too when I was training my pyromancy but
> the complaining/asking why it's so hot
What. Which part of you complained? This is important here because it seems your being is syncing with reality and it's elements because it's "new" for (some parts) of (You)
> i've always been drawn to stuff in games like phantasy star
Yeah they usually include mystical stuff then without realizing start to channel stuff then the writers add stuff into the plot because someone just whispers something into their ears when they are in a creative frenzy and those ideas are so good they add it. 
Tho all I know about PSO2 that it faced a massive controversy and will be shut down because of it. I think I read it somewhere that the community managers powertripped and killed the whole game.
I totally skipped the whole franchise. I am not big on other MMOs.

> where it feels almost instinctive/inherent
Yeah iktf it usually feels like that you "Knew that already" and it just clicked.
> certain things from watching people i get weird looks
It's also a mechanism. You can actually "copy" the "skill tulpa" from people but for that you have to "Look into them" and some of us can do that subconsciously. Sometimes your eyes will just touch weirdly but sometimes they will be just get surprised by your trance like focus looks ( sometimes we make dumb faces while doing that without realizing) also sometimes they subconsciously feel something "weird" coming from you that they can't understand so they disregard it. It's about the subconscious forces of people connecting and sometimes it gets unnoticed sometimes it bothers people.

Dabbled in programming in high school but realized I will not have a chance in life to get money from programming because of other responsibilities and it can only turn into an interest or a hobby at max so I didn't bother to develop the mental faculties that can literally "slurp up programming knowledge". It's just the way you structure knowledge. Some parts of it is autistic while some parts of it can be superintuitive.
Also it never helped that I was supermegatired everytime the programming class took place. Can't really give an advice on it because every programming language has a "feel" that you need to get the hang of. It's usually logic patterns but they have a flow that when you understand it it just comes together. Ganbare I guess. At least on this board you are not alone with this problem. Maybe others can chip in.