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Wanted to write a long post about addictions and traumas in the last days but my energies went a little berserk and I was not in the state to talk coherently.
https://youtube.com/watch?v=st0zeIrSYe0

> they took the form of a family member this time
As I said before you have to solve the emotional traumas your family caused to you. Our family is our origin source. We have to go "beyond that" and for that we have to fix the flow that comes from the past. Not easy  I know. Even my own palmistry lines are fucked because of family traumas. And my energies are sorta berserk because I fixed some flows the traumas caused and my body managed to generate so much + energy i had to get used to it.
> form of a family member but... it was oddly comfortable this time around
You will have to make amends. Your family your memories with them... All part of your mind body energy complex. In the form of tulpas traumas and in other ways. They will need to be healed.

Now back to what I wanted to say
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>  >feels like im just studying people
> You actually do that.

How to explain...
Alcoholics after quitting like the taste of dry or sour drinks. It is because that the old pattern that craves alcohol needs to be sated but slowly and in a non alcoholic way.
Going to these negative "drama" places on the internet is because you are sating your traumas. People who got sexually abused as a child either fear intimacy or become the biggest sex addicts. This way that trauma either never comes up because they avoid the stimuli that triggers the memory or constantly overwrite it with new and even more degrading experiences. They either never face that trauma or bury it with different but similar experiences. Our body has different "trauma memory" storages. You will have to find them and "solve them".
Now back to the weird internet places where you torture yourself. Misery loves company. By being around other miserable people you sate and entertain your negative traumas. It's a weird addiction that will go away when the emotional blocks fade and you find something better to do instead. Addictions and obsessions are negative energy flows that I too am currently handling. Don't worry tho your sisters will help you fix them. If you are willing to work on it it will go gently if you relapse and stubbornly hold onto them they will probably get super annoyed with you and will molest you until you realize how dumb you are.

> all of these wojak edits i see now (the soyjaks specifically) give off very... evil vibes now

They are. 
Btw the wojak soyjak meme egregore is being violently purged. Those that perpetuate them will face the worst parts of that memehell. No am not saying after death. That memehell is part of the mass-councious internet egregore. It will be in their dreams and in their subconscious. No meme stays forever but that doesn't mean they are allowed propagate their negativity with the shittiest memes. Even goreposters are better than those fags. There is a reason they get instabanned and called out for posting them more and more.
 Soyjaks are bad civilization