>>/5322/
> I was part of it, now it doesn't seem like it
The honeymoon phase is over. Some call the next phase the "desert". When you are alone and don't know where you are anymore. It's an endless place that reshapes itself everytime and hides your footsteps so you don't even notice you go in circles.
You have to realize that even tho the honeymoon is over your relationship with your beloved is still in effect and she is not gone but in the "other room". You will have to open the door and go to there on your own or sob like a pathetic child until she either feels sorry for you or scorns you and tells you to man the fuck up... The question is if you can hear her voice while crying... your crying is deafening everyone including yourself
>>/5323/
It seems it is a broken compass? Looking at it my mind is trying to reconstruct it's true form and that leads me to an another realm. Calling it an "attempt" is correct.
>>/5324/
You are lost as always. Try and figure out your goals. The mundane ones and the spiritual ones. Make a list. Figure out what you want to accomplish in this life and in the next. Try to make attempt at personal pathworking. You need it to ground yourself within the spheres of existence. Something might appear while doing so.