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> If your life was full with hardships and strife your strengths would have no choice but to come out but currently you are still somewhat "comfy" which means you are being tuned for spiritwork first. Mundane hardships is not what you need. You need proper energetic connections so you can retain your true nature. Hope this explained it a little.
yeah, the explanation helped. i just think i had a flawed understanding and just didnt fully get it

 >>/7104/
> I don't know what kind of archetype you have about "mages" but they do their craft however they please. Some hide at their altar and cast from there or they go close and personal because that way they can see the weaknesses of their enemies better. It depends on their style and method. On the long run who is "strong" and "weak" kinda loses it's meaning. Depends how well you can utilize situations in the end.
well, going off of the FInal fantasy, Phantasy star online and i guess soulsborne(if you want to count this last one) i'm always just used Mages being squishy and preferring to be away from the action since they usually have shit stats outside of things relating to magic, ie: not being able to take a hit, sometimes having to be still, etc. tl;dr: glass cannon


> I don't know what kind of archetype you have about "mages" but they do their craft however they please. Some hide at their altar and cast from there or they go close and personal because that way they can see the weaknesses of their enemies better. It depends on their style and method. On the long run who is "strong" and "weak" kinda loses it's meaning. Depends how well you can utilize situations in the end.

> Yeah things don't exactly work this way. Strength is in everyone you just need to find it and learn how to apply it. Especially in magic. But for you it is a dormant and a "hidden" strength that you are slowly unearthing. Because of that it takes time to adjust to it and accept that you have it.
ahhh

> So sides of the body arms and under the eyes. Those are important circuits. Nothing on the forehead?
I cant recall anything on the forehead

I'm sure she did have legs but you know.. when you're getting dragged into a different place fairly abruptly you can't really notice things, even if they are obvious and in your face.


> It's an automatic process for you. A sort of reflex that appears in real life and death scenarios or if a being that is recognized as your "master" "commands" you to bring it out. Or a "true ally" "inspiring" you to do it. You cannot do this with your "lowly mundane mental circuits". I am not saying you cannot do it but not with halfbaked self doubting thoughts and intents. 
Oh so that explains why in some cases where my sisters had me into extermination mode those few times i was able to do it without a second thought then... there were other cases of certain people pulling things out of me (like my grandmother and a few other individuals) so that does make sense.

You need to reach a do or die mentality and push further no matter what. It's a extreme state of mental clarity. Once it is decided you not just "gonna do it" but on a level where you "already done it" and there is no force that will stop you. Kinda different from mine because I have a sort of zeal and conviction while yours is a sort of "certainty" a sort of "it cannot be done in any other way".
hmmm.. i'm not sure if i understand but people have described it as me not being able to stop moving whenever i start grinding/learning/studying or something along those lines i cant remember. honestly the few times i have gotten like that i kinda just filter out and forget what people say