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> Humans when born only have one portion of this "love".

And how do I know if I spent it or not?
I know it's called "love" and "lust" for a reason. I know the difference between love and lust.

> It's when someone loves themselves over everything else, and invests the love and devotion only in themselves.

I love myself because I realized that is the most efficient way.  and I never found anyone who truly deserves my love ;_; 

> love and devotion only in themselves.
> only

Now what does this mean. 
I figured out how I can "love" things I hare so if I have to do them I don't feel that much resistance while doing it. How do I know if I was my "only love" or if my love is "true" enough so it counts as a "portion of love". 

Do I have to ask a demon how much lust I borrowed or this minor thing even counts as "lust"?

I have even more questions because... I never loved truly anyone but myself but how do I know I don't feel "lust" for myself 

 writing about this gets worse and worse so I will stop for now