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Well, sometime last year I saw the sigil of Satan and kept seeing it from time to in my minds eye probably due to worries or tricks by a certain being, then one night I suddenly got super horny and decided to fap after a few months of not doing it and during orgasm the name Satan popped up strongly in my mind, and after that I got a couple of lessons in dreams related to something I fear doing IRL but would probably have to do one day, he caused no trouble, and seemed confused by me being undead. But I found out the other day that apparently there might be a connection or some of his energy still around.
My real issues are with Lucifuge though, I aparenltly messed up with him and he made a thoughtform that talks with intrusive thoughts in my mind whenever it can, I can attack it but I suck at it, apparently if someone capable of destroying it tries to do it, he shows up and protects it and sometimes retaliates(at least I'm pretty sure he did beat up an angel). It seems that this is allowed because it is some sort of lesson but I still haven't figured out what the lesson is, its been almost 2 years now, I wish someone could tell me what the lesson is already but IDK if that might ruin the lesson itself.