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We knew everything in the beginning ;_; This rotten world just corrupted us

I even had my last shadow persona coming out.
I couldn't believe I was in Arhat. It felt fake. Because it obv was that is why it's "fake heaven".
I even asked the skeletons about it.
> was I really in Arhat
> what would you even make you believe that you were there 
can't argue with this. Only retarded philosophers try to do it.
> What if I have misconceptions
> WE ALL HAVE MISCONCEPTIONS. THAT IS WHY WE ARE STILL HERE 
I realized this is also true.

But my paranoia is dark and stiffens my spine. The origin point is my head. It's not truth not the "self" that is why it hurts. I mapped him out ripped him from my body. He was truly the strongest so far. He literally stabbed me in my face before I could kill him. The pain it caused was by the blade but "I made" that blade so I knew how it hurt so I could also take the "wound" apart. It was funny 

Also I know that sharing these stories gets dumber and dumber but I also read what Li Hongzi said about how curing illness is pointless but going to energy conventions to show that it's possible might inspire people to "try the way". Most of them won't. But those who will try have a chance to be saved.

We must know when we post our stories it must be not "boasting" or it creates attachments and there is a chance someone will misinterpret what we wrote and do something dumb because of it but if BO didn't write down all the weird shit he is always doing. I wouldn't be here either. 
For those who don't walk the path this shit will be just ERP and those who do? To them it will be a "been there done that" story. But for those who might be lost on the path? To them this might be a missing piece of the puzzle. Going on the path makes you do things you don't realize how much it helps others. It always baffles me.