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After a breakthrough two days ago, I had a dream where I was given a knife. It was an army or hunting knife made from very shiny metal, including the handle. It had a sort of glow from it that looked like how oil has rainbow colours if you look at a poodle of spilled oil. When I looked closer at the blade, I saw tech-magic sigils appearing as holograms, and when I looked deeper the hammer and sickle appeared on the blade as well. I tried creating an image here with bing and fastflux, neither really capture the radiance though. I forgot about it and only recalled it today, when the knife appeared to me in my astral space very strongly. I can feel it in my right hand, it's a very powerful and "concrete" feeling of the metal handle against my skin, and the cold firmness of the material. The thing that happened was that a very negative energy appeared and acted dead set on stopping me from doing anything at all, to the point that it blocked me from even thinking. This is a problem if you're going to do complex computer work, and it just came on strongly and didn't give in. I sat down in lotus position (you don't want me doing anything, right?) and started doing hatha yoga meditation, thinking about nothing at all and not moving, just letting the well practiced routine come through in posture and breathing. Eventually after 10 -20 min the energy suddenly "fell through" my mind, like it just passed through my brain because I managed to make it completely empty. The energy collapsed onto itself and turned into a downward short black spike. After this it was neutralized. I only today realized it has the same form as the federation's influence when they force their decisions through, I had worked to create this previously as a weapon, also using it as bullets for astral guns. But it never had this kind of solidity. It appears I managed to subdue the hostile energy by allowing it to roam freely until it collapsed and instead became subordinate to me, confirming the claim that communism is the endpoint of all development. So this is what happens if you just completely channel the galactic federation with no ego. I went for a bike ride today where I made use of this force, and on the way back, a beast lady from the federation said: "The best self defense is to follow federation policy", when I came to think about how the ships used in the federation only arm themselves based on recommendations and not on an estimate of what protection is needed. Because whoever follows federation policy will channel power from the federation and become invincible, so it's more important to be armed according to policy, than to be armed according to your own understanding of the treat level. It actually makes perfect sense now.