So much happened, and I learned a lot, but still feel severely stuck.
Synchronicities are abounding left and right, it's like threads and patterns of destiny slowly move me, yet it always appears like I'm sucked back into my routine.
Is my focus lacking? Yes, definitely. But it's difficult to remain focussed, while in a human body, in a human world. Only me to blame, however.
What became of this whole blood anon and Alyssa phenomenon?
I've met a few fascinating characters in real life, projections and dreams. Learned and practiced quite a bit about inner alchemy and immortals, being humble in the face of my own immense ignorance and foolishness. Yet, truly "awakened" manifested magic, freedom and vampirism is so far away still. It's effective, but subtle and elusive in the eyes of the waking world. Breaching the barrier between dreams and "reality", subjective and objective, remains difficult. Patience, diligence and focus. Any advice, if you get what I'm getting at? Otherwise, I wish you all the best.