>>/9439/
I too was baffled when I've seen it. Really like that fork in the road staff in his hand. Reality really feels that way nowadays.
>>/9436/
I am not sure but I think you are retaining your authority. I think you lack leadership experience and the "aura of a master/leader" which is important for self casting or reality warping. You just follow others and fool around and don't know what it means to have power and responsibility. I think this is the part where you will have to accept that (You) have power instead of getting dragged along constantly. Also the solar plexus is a kingdom a bejeweled city that can act as an energetic powerhouse for your higher faculties. Like if you eat food you can walk and think same with magic. Every spell requires some kind of energy and the solar plexus is the main energetic supply center on the physical.
> seeing other people immolate from drinking water
Sexual energies are a sort of "fiery water" it is fiery and "wet" at the same time like how fuel is for cars.
> i wonder if im actually getting taken soon
I think I have to say this but you cannot get "taken". You will have to realize your powers and you will have to make the "jump" somehow while entities may or may not help you to some degree. I looked at your case so long ago I cannot say where your current development stands at all. I am unsure what else I can say without doing a deep reading.
Shinobu best girl btw. I should watch the new season of monogatari already