I'm addicted to masturbation, drugs and social media. It's debilitating. I am failing at work as a result.
I don't believe in free-will. This is extremely common among weak-willed individuals, e.g. addicts, for obvious reasons. However I don't think I am an innocent victim, I blame all of it on myself. I'm not self-hating, I do the same with other people (e.g. I have a low opinion of other addicts). Idk where that puts me philosophically or whatever, but this is where my biases are and I don't feel I need to abandon one of them just because they supposedly contradict each other (e.g. adopt "free will" into my worldview, or be less judgemental towards shit, lowly human beings). Anyone who is knowledgeable on the topic want to just fast-track me by telling me which philosophers or which philosophy is compatible with my biases so I can understand them better? If they're logically inconsistent/wrong I really don't give a shit, I'm not some automaton robot that treats these problems like arithmetic.