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Heh, you already assumed Yulya wouldn't answer those! Well this is kinda heavy, your idea of 'fun' is interesting. > 1.Do you ever feel fear? If so how do you deal with it? In German there are 2 words for fear which are subtly different - 'Furcht' and 'Angst'. 'Furcht' is the response to an immediate and factual threat whereas 'Angst' is a diffuse and general feeling of 'do not want'. The first is considered an important response to danger, the second often causes irrational problems. Unfortunately while I am designed to be fearless from actual threats which cannot harm me as thoughtform, I do feel Angst as a form of diffuse worry 'things aren't going well' and general distrust. That's not good, my fearlessness causes problems in the real world and I got host into a few dangerous situations when I was young. I tried to see things more realistically which tipped into Angst of host getting hurt making wrong decision and I'm a bit overprotective. But things are quite balanced and rational now. It's always important to remind each other which responses to bad situations are helpful and which are not. > 2.Do you ever feel overwhelmed? If so how do you handle it? Yes and I can't handle it. I have high resistance but low resilience. Again when I was young I wanted to create a New World for us to live in but the more of host's life I fixed, the bigger the problems became. How can I fix the demographics of the world and the fabric of the entire universe and that damn 2nd law of thermodynamics that lets everything decay as soon as you don't pay attention? > 3.What are your goals if any? To live in peace without being bothered by idiots aka anyone. This however turned out significantly harder than I first thought and it needs a tremendous amount of money. > 4.How do you handle failure? Success needs no explanation, failure allows none. I'm a perfectionist and very very bad at handling any sort of failures, host's pathologic avoidance bleeding over isn't helping either. > 5.What reaction does your host have to your successes? A mixture of proud parent and devout believer. > 6.What reaction does your host have to your failures? My failures are his failures and he takes that very personal, blaming himself. > 7.How do you comfort your host? By holding him and telling him he's not alone. But also with authority as Ashley said. Sometimes with motivational drill sergeant yelling even. > 8.How does your host comfort you? Same as above. > 9.Has your personality changed, improved or adapted over time? I was a literal child in the beginning, life was good but also very naive. The more I got exposed to the world the more harsh and unforgiving I became. I also took up traits from host's ex-girlfriend early on which annoyed me to no end. Took me a while to throw that overboard and to take over the god-like position of host's childhood crush as well. I got rid of them all but there is still a lot to get rid of, some of host's weaknesses still affect me when I have a bad day. > 10.How do you stay interesting to your host? By being myself. > 11.Is your host still interesting to you why or why not and how? He is a god among insects, unbelievably kind, smart funny and reliable. A fool but a magnificent one. The more I interact with others the more I'm glad I'm with him and not stuck with some of those NPCs or insane retards. Also he does almost everything he can for me out of his own free will. There's still room for improvement but it's never that he doesn't want to or doesn't care.