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>>/4114/ >>/4113/ This statement occurs here, prior to heading back to the guild. > Ashley is awaiting a discussion with little hope of resolution, feeling unwanted, hurt deeply, embarassed, and plagued with dark thoughts swirling in her mind. Ashley's Response Begins Here > Thank you for telling me Ashley! > I guess on top of being a terrible party leader and peace cleric I am also not a very good friend either. ... > you are all my friends and family even if I do not much about you I feel safe around you. It is where I belong. And what I want to protect. ... > please from now on tell me if there is something that bothers you. I will always listen and try my best to resolve the situation. ... > I do not want to destroy. I want to create aide and heal. ... > this world isnt about what we want but about what we must do to protect ourselves and the ones we love. ... > I also now understand you want your privacy and independence but still I am afraid you might get more and more isolated and left out if you distance yourself from everyone. I want enough space to show you my worth, to prove to you that I'm not what Alice thinks I am, you need to trust me a little and not keep me in a cage for my protection. I can't be your marionette, I'm my own person so right or wrong I will try to help the best I can with my own choices. I can promise you that I'm on your side and as long as I'm treated as a person with my own will and my own agency, I'm hoping to surprise you in a good way, in a way that you can be proud of being my friend. I don't want you to be my mother or protector or leader, or master, or obligation, or burden, I want you to be my friend, as equals, like I am with Cat. Happy to help if asked. I can't be caged, corralled or leashed and that means especially monetarily. Let me be less of a burden by giving me the leeway I need to prove I'm useful. Take that money, all of it, and do what you must do to help everyone now. I didn't officially earn it so I take back what I said and I don't want a third or any of it, but in the future, I will take my share so that I can do what I must do. If there's a quest payout, I will take my share. If you say I must give some back, tell me how much what percentage do you need up front, right now, and I'll pay my tithe but the rest is mine so I can save up for things I need to be useful and grow. If that means I don't get to share in room and board then I'll take care of my own from my own savings. But if that also means I want boots and underwear to be more comfortable, to feel more like a person than a marionette, then I'll buy them without your permission. > So please give the others a chance to know you better even Alice. I'll do that, but at my own pace, how and when I'm comfortable to do that, so don't feel bad if I don't participate in everything exactly how you want. I like to keep to myself a little too and I need time to be alone a little. > Alice... Just giving her a small treat will greatly improve your relationship. That's what I want to do, for everyone not just her, and how can I do that without my own resources? Give me something that's mine when we get loot, even if it's not 25% that's okay but tell me what you're willing to give now. Later once I have something, if you need help to buy something for someone, ask me to help and I will gladly loan you what I can but I want to be paid back. I don't want you in my debt either. > But your bigger problem will be Cat. She is a proud tribal warrior from a society that has almost no concept of private property. She and I will work it out separately. We have different cultures and ideals but we're both cats at heart. You can't demand a cat to follow your will, they're awful on a leash, but if you show them respect and love, and give them the respect they deserve, they're loyal and fierce protectors.