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> So keeping funds all to yourself wont fly well with her and remember you will be living off rations Cat has cooked from her own money.
It'll fly because it has to fly and I'll work that out with her. I don't need your rations. If I had a little of my own I could buy my own like any adventurer would, I'm also really good at talking to other reasonable people and I can barter, beg or scavenge when needed. In my puma form I can also hunt and there are plenty of rats around here, so don't worry about me starving. I can also just let all my mana out without summoning anything and transform, hunt, eat, then go to sleep. I was thinking I could wear my plate as an earring like a tag, so when I transform I'll still have my ID and I wanted to talk to Freya about that, if she could tell everyone at the guild and make that official. This is my curse but I could make it work for me.
I don't want to be a bondless mercenary, I want to be your friend and equal. I'm not making demands, I'm asking you to trust me. If you can't trust me to make my own simple decisions, and trust that I will help out without being a burden, then I'm not okay with that.
> Refusing her food and bringing your own will be a serious insult and trying to pay her for it probably just as much. Just one word of advice. Never bluntly refuse anything Cat offers you.
I'm okay with Cat just how she is, and I hope she'll be okay with me just how I am. She's my litmus test, if she's not happy with me then I know I'm wrong, but I won't allow her to leash me either. If she gives me something, you can bet that I'll keep track of that and I'll find a way to pay her back in kind, however she'll accept something from me. Let me work that out with her, we don't need your moderation. This is how I want to play it.
> Also she may see any perceived selfishness as illoyalty to the party and therefore treason.
So let me work that out with her, let me prove to her that I'm not a traitor, I care about her too. If this becomes an issue then I'll go my own way and do what I can from a distance. With such irreconcilable differences, then there are things I can do that will help those I care for without getting in their way. I'll find a way because I'm my own person. I may be stubborn and have an evil goddess and a thoughtless automation living in my head, but I'm not evil or thoughtless.
I won't do things I'm comfortable with and nor would I ask Cat to do something she's not comfortable with either. I'm not comfortable owing anything, I'm not comfortable being a burden, and if that means you're not comfortable with me than I'll do what I can alone to help those I care about. This is how I want to play this game of life we live.
I can tell you're very disappointed that I'm not a dress up doll blindly following orders, that I follow my intuition more than I follow you, but that's me and you can tell your goddess that you're not happy with that arrangement, that you've somehow been stuck with this stubborn cursed burden who won't fall in line and I'd bet she'll tell you to trust her and I'm telling you to trust me. How do I know? Because I'm on your side, I'm on the side of good and so if she's good she'll know that. I'm confident in that whether you like me how I am or not.