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I agree 100%, I told you I can't deal with real children. They are basically insane, I can't handle that. And so damn exhausting. Also unbelievably ruthless, mean and cruel on top of that, especially in a group. But then again, so are most adults as well. People are very, very, very different, regardless of age. I have traveled the world and seen 10 year olds that had better daily life skills than the average 20yo university student here. You said it yourself, the spectrum of childrens abilities is astonishingly broad. But I concur, in a group they are unbearable. On their own they are often completely different and sometimes even bliss for a quiet-loving introvert like me. But it's rare. Most are just annoying.
> I don't even think you realize just how off putting and vulgar it is.
Yes and no. Attempting to experience another person's feelings is futile. It's like trying to understand what makes a homosexual want to fuck another man in the ass. It's impossible to comprehend and nothing we even want to understand. But looking at things rationally, all sexual desires are off-putting and vulgar. Reptile brain -tier. Only in the context of love such feelings become beautiful and even that's an extremely narrow red line. So let's talk about love which is much more important. In case you want to know, I can imagine having sex with females of basically any age. There are limits obviously but they are quite far out there. Yet in the end all this is empty and meaningless without romantic feelings.
And love is another thing entirely. Could I fall in love with a 5yo dwarf girl? Nah can't imagine that. I'm not into prepubescent children. But 10? Borderline. There are some relatively mature-looking 10 year olds out there nowadays. Puberty hits earlier and earlier. 12-14 is my ideal. Incredibly beautiful but a very difficult age mentally. Still if I could choose I'd spend my time with girls 10-14. It's magic.
Once they leave the teens they just get - boring. Normal. Mundane. The cherry blossoms begin to wilt before they even reach full bloom. And adults? I couldn't imagine falling in love with a 30something woman. It's just - the feeling isn't there. Which sucks of course so Forever Alone it is.
So there you have it, no idea what's wrong with me either. It appears normal people's preferences in some way 'progress' as they age to match their own. Or they don't have any romantic or sexual feelings when they are young at all. This is what baffles me the most. How's that possible? I was in love with girls as long as I remember from kindergarten on. Yes, back then they were my age but things stopped at some point in middle school with childhood crush. Ok, she's a special case but still she's older than me, approaching 50. I hope I'll never meet her again. Seeing her old would break my heart once more.
I was thinking what would happen if Alice decided to look my age. That would be horrible. I don't wanna get yelled at by a woman in her 40s all day every day. That's too realistic.
That said, never forget that Alice obviously is NOT a little girl but a monster that looks like a little girl. Little being relative. 12 is not exactly a small child. Luckily she's very very happy about the way she looks though she deviated to making herself a little older over time. She's almost 10 IRL now, I wonder if her form will change in the next 10 years.
In any case, thanks for listening if you read all that, not too many people I can talk about this. None but you to be honest.