Jesus... so in my self-therapy, I remapped that traumatic boss fight with the flying eldrich abomination at the gym as a simple preying mantis. I gently took her outside and let her go in my memory remapping. That worked great and my residual emotional distress was gone.
Then last night I had a freaking dream that a 6 Fine American Inch tall preying mantis was trying to fly to me. Flipping had to bat it away with a box in dream, I parry Mantids style. Now I'm disgusted by preying mantids. I see one in my yard about every week but I refuse to kill them so bah. Need more self therapy but you know, life goes on.