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https://youtube.com/watch?v=L3LHAlcrTRA
Such things repeat when you put yourself in the situation for them to repeat. Granted you may need to wait for your next life for what you described.
I had strictly all-girl study groups before, we went out, had fun, and it was temporary. This is temporary. It's not the first time, it may be the last time -> and that's okay.
Sounds like the attachments are causing you suffering, you're holding on to things that may never happen again. Why can't you enjoy the times for what they were, can't you cherish memories?
When I moved out from my rented room with the three girl roommates, I felt lonely for a long time even though I had a girlfriend. Moving in with her was good, good times. They don't last forever. When I was depressed I lamented those times, I couldn't think of them yet my dreams were littered with them. I can think of them fondly now, I don't need them to repeat to know they happened and feel good about it.
My first niece was born when I was 18, I didn't want to have anything to do with her and I lived in the same house, it was right before I finally moved out. Ofc she loved me, I was the only man in her life and I did play with her even as a 1-3 yr-old. Her father was a loser and she knew it.
I stayed in touch for years and I had to cut all ties because of my asshole brother and abusive mother. That was it. And it hurt, but ultimately I didn't care. I had fun with her and her girlfriends, we played together on the first Xbox one, I think I drove them to McDonalds once. What's the big deal? Nothing.
Again it continues to happen, not that I expected it or care for it to happen. I'll have fun if there's fun to be had, but I don't need others to have fun. Neighborhood kids will continue to come up to me and I'll continue to interact with them, when they don't that's fine too. If they never do again, that's fine too.
You'd probably be able to volunteer places where trust could be earned if you cared that much about it. Otherwise you aren't willing to put in the effort then get over it. It's not enviable, it just is, and it'll end and it'll be fine either way.
Life is about change, and so it changes. Then life ends. If we repeat, then it repeats, if it doesn't then I'll happily sleep.