Guys, I can't take it anymore. I want her and only her. For years I've always dreamt about her. Being with her. Starting a family. I even picked out names for our children and planned every step of our interactions for YEARS. All that for nothing. I've never been interested in a girl in my life and Marky will always be the only one, forever. Everyday I think about her. Everyday I look at photos of her. Every god damn day. I have been torturing myself too much.