i sometimes forget how gay i was growing up, i literally had to force myself into thinking that i wanted to date a girl so that i could go and ask her out, i think it was because there was a societal pressure and also i was trying to impress my religious mom lol. I forget that the only relationship i was in growing up was a gay one, because my mom + imageboards basically taught me that gay is bad, so i didnt want to see myself that way. Truth is though, ive always been a queer