If you're going to kill yourself it means you don't have to deal with the consequences left here on earth for the things you do. For once, when they say "you can do anything you want to!" they're right. So what would you do if actions had no repercussions?
For me, I would take out a large loan from the bank and just go crazy. Max out credit cards, spend wildly on all the cool shit I wish I had. Because it's not just about buying items, it's about buying an experience.
After that I would probably kill my most hated enemies. I don't believe in an afterlife so I don't believe I'm going to hell. All those smug fucks thinking they could push me around. Especially my old teachers. I fucking hate public school teachers, motherfuckers, every last one of em. Prison? Fuck that, you can't imprison a corpse.
Honestly I just don't get why people who crack under pressure kill themselves instead of the people who caused it, or at least take those fucks along for the ride when they off themselves.