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Every interaction after this became nothing but hell. Alex began employing extreme vampirism on me(while lying to my face about it), and on top of the curses I was getting from my rival (the person who doxxed me originally), the groupchat, and my pedophile stalker(who I was trying to murder magically while in a homicidal fugue state), my mind starts to weaken. I lost my job due to extreme fatigue, because I'd constantly lose sleep then show up late for work and underperform. After the curses, vampirism, verbal abuse, and extreme forced possession experiences, I snap. I began contacting Alex nonstop, threatening to kill him, cursing him - intentionally making every single interaction I have with him a lving hell on purpose while stringing him along with the feelings he (claimed to) still have me. Why his mind even works that way, or thinks love is an affair of abuse, is beyond me, but I refuse to participate in this sick behavior anymore. Lol I scared him so much he changed his number, then he made a new one, but texted me again, so I scared him into changing that one too. I didn't give a single fuck, I still think it's funny - but this was a total 180 from my normal personality. I'd met people like Alex before this and simply cut contact when they began to behave in this manner.
Despite being blocked, Alex recurrently makes new acounts to contact me and we sometimes do have positive interactions. Not all of our interactions were bad, but Alex would constantly invoke things into me without my consent and I had almost no control over my own voice. So tbh, he doesn't even know who I really am because of this. We watched some shows together and talked about spiritual experiences, but every time I engaged with him emotionally sexually, he would add an abusive twist to it, and constantly say demeaning things. reactive abuse occured in almost every interaction we had. His taste was pretty rauchy and gross frankly - I'm pretty sure he had a porn addiction. Most of our interactions would eventually devolve to screaming and insults because I only wanted to hurt and fuck with him for being hateful, and he would end up draining me. He cursed me extensively with Nythra, who I think was responsible for one of my famiy members falling and dying.
If it wasn't her, it could have been the numerous other dark acausal entites around us, specifically the beings of Liber Anaxeiraxz (aka the Forbidden 13) who were forcing me through pathworkings at that time. or some of the dark Djinn I had cursed a pedophile with (people around him died) who decided to go do what the fuck they wanted, or any number of the people doxxing me who were flinging death curses at me and my family. Who knows, but at this point ALL of my online interactions were pure fucking chaos. I had numerous other interactions go awry, most of them consisting of people ganging up against me as a group to mock and belittle me. Some of these spirits really like bullying.
I miss my friend. I told Alex extensively about this person, and I'd put an extreme amount of effort into the occult so I could eventually heal her, and some of it worked, but she still ended her life in some pretty bizarre circumstances. Again, it could have been from him or anyone else I had in my life at that point. I just think that I would have been able to sway events differently had Alex not been a factor in my life. I would have been able to take more proactive steps in protecting her. It feels pointless. Why even seek deification if you can't control fate? Why didn't the beings I dedicated my heart and soul to save what was most important to me? I'm more powerful than ever at this point and even normies start noticing shit around me, I've proven it to people IRL, but fuck, I don't even want to play with the occult anymore.