hi cewl. you know, its really crazy to me that there are people here who have gone way out of their way to help you when your back was against the wall. ppl gave u drug money when you needed it, have bought u stuff off your amazon wishlist (to which you arent even thankful), ppl have helped you when you were faced with blackmailers and extorters. youve always had a 'guardian angel' to help get you out of your messes. when you were desperate, when you asked for help, someone always has answered from here.
then when the time comes for you to return the favor and really be there for someone, as a friend, you arent. when its your turn to be someones angel, you arent. when you have the opportunity to brighten someones day who has helped you extensively in the past, you dont. i guess what im saying is, people have been such good friends to you, but you are nothing but a dog shit friend in return. i dont know how you even live with yourself tbh. you should feel like shit for the way youve treated ppl throughout your life. I genuinely hope you die at this point.