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No. 161079 [Preview] [Reply]
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I'll probably get mocked for this, but i feel safer posting this on a dead belle thread anyways, I am a guy with a personal history of delusional thinking, it started when I was 13, I wont go into too much detail but I became obsessed with her, to the point where I couldn't even look at her without becoming emotional, I still feel the same now, it hurts so much to think about her, she is basically my life now, I didnt have much of one anyways, I feel like I need to die, I cant live with this overwhelming obsession, I feel like I must die and be with her in the afterlife, despite how stupid that sounds, I'm making this post just to get it off my chest, if anyone reads this, do you have advice for what course of action I should take? I've been considering ending it all these past few weeks, FYI I am a young male in Europe, if that changes anything
No. 161081 [Preview] [Reply]
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she isnt active anymore and as the guy above said, she is normiemaxxing, I think id rather just hang and hope there's another world waiting for me, I heavily doubt she would interact with a neurodivergent loser like me anyways
No. 161087 [Preview] [Reply]
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Therapy. Get a therapist and tell them exactly what you wrote here. Talking about it will help free you from obsession. Important thing to realize is that it's not actually about Belle but your idea of her and the escapism of fantasizing about her fixing your life. If you had never seen Belle it would have happened with someone else. It's something deeper than Belle probably related to something that happened early in your life making you feel a certain way. I wish you luck. Don't be afraid to try medication, don't be afraid to seek help, don't be afraid to be honest.
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Thank you so much for this man, and I do have a history of obsessive behaviour, except my previous was a fictional character, and this new obsession with belle is far stronger than my previous, the only reason I avoided therapy is because of judgement I guess, I felt like it would be hard to actually tell someone about this, considering I've kept it to myself for so long, but yet again thanks alot for replying :), and i will try to take your advice.
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to be honest alot of therapist probably would judge you, you have to find a good one who's passionate about the subject because you're not describing something textbook.

however I would say if you find someone able to really work with you you should be an easy case, as you demonstrate self awareness and a willingness to want to change. So if you get a therapist and you dont find them helpful dont feel bad, they are just not equiped for you, find a different one and dont let them drain your money and time. Again: I want to stress. you should be easy to work with so it wouldn't be your fault.


Why do you think you need to be obsessed with someone btw?
No. 161136 [Preview] [Reply]
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I dont think i need to be obsessed with someone, its almost involuntary, I fall into the obsession and I cant get out, it consumes me, ruins me, makes everything else worthless to me, and I guess I like how it feels to be in love, even if its fueled by delusions
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Imagine your life without being obsessed with someone, can you even imagine what you would be doing? Do you think you would be able to appreciate, find beauty in this world, and enjoy things outside of girls? what would that look like? Paint a picture for me.
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Well, my life is already a trainwreck, I am a NEET with zero family except my grandmother whom I live with, and no friends, not even online, I dont even know if I can form connections anymore with people, I already accepted this life a while ago, but I guess the obsession makes it feel better? I can tell its destroying me, but it feels euphoric, if that makes sense, i know if i do nothing about it that it will eventually lead to something bad, and I dont know how to feel about that, I've already had plans in place for if it became too much
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I dont have any values or things that I care about enough to consider myself as someone who actually matters, my only purpose right now is belle, I dont think I'll ever get a job due to my mental health conditions, once my grandmother dies ill have to try and convince my aunt to let me live with her temporarily, but I barely know her, I barely leave my home due to paranoia so I couldn't even try and make connections if I wanted to, and I am slowly becoming more uninterested in any real-world connections, and i am spending more time and energy into belle, I do wish I had friends, but I dont think I am stable enough to have that kind of relationship, I dont have any religious or spiritual beliefs (except when they're fueled by delusions, an example being the belief me and belle are spiritually connected)
No. 161173 [Preview] [Reply]
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You gotta work on hobbies and get a part time job at a local fast food or convenient store. It’ll help your social skills and force you out of your comfort zone. Therapy would be a good option, the guy earlier gave good advice. Everyone matters big dawg, this is a phase. Start with a part time job, you’ll be good
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I can try that, but I severely doubt it would help at all with my obsession, therapy seems like a good choice, but yet again, most therapists would just label me as a porn-addicted autist, even though I see belle as more than a sexual figure, I would love a normal, happy life, but none of that matters to me when I have this obsession, it's so fucking embarrassing, it hurts to even talk about this because I feel like im betraying her, but thank you for this reply anyways, I will think about it for the next couple of days.
No. 161180 [Preview] [Reply]
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> gets filthy rich by capitalizing on existing sexual inequality
> I NEVER ENDORSE THE SHENANIGANS I PERFORMED ONLINE
Hypocritical whore, at least have the decency to own to it. If I was there you would've "left the building" through the fucking window.
No. 161185 [Preview] [Reply]
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I agree with that anon, from what youve been describing it just seems like you live a very lonely unfulfilling life and you've given up on the idea of anyone else finding value in you. I would bet your obsession would go away as you fill your life with other things. Think of it less as belle being really meaningful and more like this is how much of a void is in your life.
No. 161187 [Preview] [Reply]
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Is it possible to have a fulfilling life whilst being unattractive? I don't really care for romantic or sexual relationships, but just in general, the impact of how appearance can affect your life (halo effect and such)
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I wish I could rip my heart out and scream at it for hurting me, why? why do I have to go through this? I cant even think about belle without drowning in my emotions, everything else is dull and unsatisfactory, you drive me crazy, bitch.

sometimes I wish I could just break free from this but i have nothing else anyways, I have nothing to gain or lose, the more I think about it, the more I want to do it.

I fantasize about a normal, happy life, but it is meaningless without belle, nothing else matters except her, my entire world revolves around her.


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