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 >>/52325/
The trouble you have in later years as you get older is you won't see your friends as often. I'll be seeing some over the 4th of July again, but most of them I only see once or twice if lucky per year. The reason that is is because everyone is busy with their own lives, has their own family, their own work and mortgages and such. When you get older time passes faster and you won't be finding time together to hang out or party as much. So even if you have friends IRL, you still socialize much more often over the internet.

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at the end of the day the problem is incredibly simple. Males bond by targeting/accomplishing something together while any actual accomplishments that there are in a modern system let's say, are inherently meaningless and depressing to anyone with the slightest emotional sensitivity. pic related and is not a joke. dw not selling shit or whatever the xmr thing is just a failsafe






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 >>/51076/
You can't "cure yourself" of you you are but if it was caused by pornography just stop viewing and using pornography 

It's not your fault. Pornography is made to arouse the audience. If you feel guilty just feel it to help quit.





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As a child, I blocked out most of my past because I was bullied. I didn't really take care of myself because I hated myself. I didn't brush my teeth, I didn't eat, I felt unloved, and so much more that I can barely remember about my childhood. I could only recall certain events, like when this one girl walked up to me and told me, "Oh, your teeth are so white, I like them." I didn't know what sarcasm was at that time, and I said "Thanks," not understanding why she sounded like that. Another memory I have is when my "friends" started leaving me for no reason. Well, I think I know why they left me; probably because I was a freak. Another memory I have is of my teachers being mean. They would mark my test adding things like "Oh, you're so stupid" to certain questions. One question that hurt me very badly is when we had to draw hands, one hand having all the good things about a person and the other having all the bad things in a person. She wrote on the bad hand, "Just like you!" That really hurt me as a child. Another memory I have is when I confessed my feelings to this girl with a love letter. I didn't really know how to spell, so most of the words just seemed like gibberish. When I gave it to her in class, she laughed, saying that I should learn how to be smart before I asked her out. Her friends even said, "You're too ugly for love." It's honestly sad. One time, back in grade 4, I think I told my friend I liked this one girl in class. He told the whole school the next day, and she "was my girlfriend" for a little until breaking up with me 3 months into the relationship. She even said, "I only dated you because I got dared" when she broke up with me. I have bad memories of everybody in my life. Even my parents used to lie, saying "Oh, you're so talented" or "You're so good at this," even though I wasn't anywhere near as good or talented as most people. I was honestly hurt as a child mentally, and I think that plays a big role in why I'm so friendly, gentle, and frankly scared of how I act around people now that I'm 14. I honestly don't want to be myself because I'm scared people might be mean to me again. I try to brush my teeth every day. I try to eat. I sort of brush my teeth every day, and I at least eat around one meal per day, so I think I'm recovering, but I'm not sure. I'm also kind of in love with this girl in my class, but I'm frankly too scared to ask her to be mine. Well, the reason is that I'm sort of broke, and I don't have a lot of money, so I can't really buy stuff for her or take her on dates, and I don't want to tell her I'm broke because I'm scared she will not want to be friends or even more than friends anymore. So yeah, I don't know what I want to do with my life or what I'm doing. I'm starting to get suicidal thoughts every day, and I can't stop them. I hope someone at least can help me here one day. But all I want is to give someone my world, to show someone all the affection and love I have in me for them. Yeah, I don't know what else to say, but I hope that my life gets better, and I hope someone can help me with what's going on in my life. Thank you.
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You know, that shit always got on my nerves when they said those unwarranted compliments. Like stop fucking patronizing me and give me something I can use. But I guess my mistake was expecting something that they weren't from them.

You remind me of myself. I was made fun of, skinny, and generally lost most the time. Except I perhaps have more violent tendencies. I used to throw my chair around my room and thrash whatever I felt like and I'd yell, cry, and beat myself up until I calmed down. The calm you feel after an emotional outburst is peculiar. I felt like slaughtering people or killing myself, but that sort of thing would've just been a wasteful endeavor. I felt that it would just be a waste of damn time as I was about to blow my brains out with my shotgun, so I stopped. If it was something I really wanted, I would have done it by now. I wanted to stop being so damn weak more than anything but I couldn't fucking have it. I now realize better that just wanting something is not enough for it to happen.

The way out, I think, is to cultivate reasoning. To have principles that are true. That's what a therapist does to help you understand and get over your problems, but personally, I wouldn't want to see one because you're paying them to pretend to be your friend. It also pisses me off that anyone other than me would have power over me because my past I guess. That's another thing, I didn't buy into this idea that you needed others to be happy. Maybe a good friend would spruce things up but I'm perfectly fine working on my own shit. Anyways, when I think about pure reasoning as a concept, things start becoming a little more coherent to me. I think that was what I was looking for, some sense, a strong foundation with suitable answers for my insecurities. Reasons I could bring myself to believe in my strength. What you want is peace, & relief. It's the definition of success, no more conflict. You should make the distinction of whether your weakness is a law or just an observation of  circumstances that you think is a law.

Using devices to escape is a good way to never face your issues and have them keep living with you. I'm starting to realize that this shit is satanic, destructive. I might become amish or some shit lol. It is more thrilling to make progress in something you can do with your hands, something with a real world effect. Like working out. What other reason do you need to start working out other than being strong is cool? My problem was shutting down because I felt like I couldn't.

Don't listen to others telling you to consoom or what to do. They speak for themselves. They're like advertisers. Do it on your own terms. I don't want to listen to them because they're telling me to consoom instead of telling me to determine what is desirable rationally.

About women, I'd say they like being liked more than anything. And, I think, it's not necessarily "alpha-ness" they like but a certain healthiness. I like ones that would accept me even if I was fucked up. For me, if I note an uncommonly good quality about them they usually like me back and I would go for those, but I don't think I would bother with the rest. Though I don't go for them because at this point in time I feel it's besides what I'm currently working on. So perhaps take all this with a grain of salt as I've never had a gf.

For teeth I use hydrogen peroxide with baking soda sprinkled on the brush. It does it's job better than the industrial waste product that is flouride, the former mixture making my teeth literally squeaky clean, unlike common toothpastes. Also oil pulling with coconut oil, I've done that some and it helps. I used to have extreme pain in my back teeth but that has pretty much gone away  after using this stuff.

These are just some of the thoughts I've accumulated. Take what you will from them and hopefully it'll help. This became long but it was an opportunity to vent some of my own stuff too. Take care.



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> I used to throw my chair around my room and thrash whatever I felt like and I'd yell, cry, and beat myself up until I calmed down.
> I felt that it would just be a waste of damn time as I was about to blow my brains out with my shotgun, so I stopped.

I don't scream, kick or cry. I just usually get too drunk to handle my guns let alone do anything with them. That's how I cope, I just get fucking drunk, then I either go smoke a cigar outside or I lay on the sofa and watch a movie/older sitcom shuffling through my vast DVD collection. I figure time is running out for me anyway, health wise, diabetes and all and I don't even take drugs for it lol, I've been told to my face before "it's only a matter of time". So what? Why should I give a damn? What is the point? Look around us, that is all we have and don't get me wrong I am thankful and glad for what I do have in life. In fact I have been blessed, it's not like I'm poor. I just get bored, terribly bored and lonely at times. Not a total recluse mind you, I still have friends and family. I just tend to get so bored most of the time, everyone else is busy, I have nothing to do most of the time (except for spring which I'm full bore outside landscaping, gardening, chopping wood etc), so I binge drink and eat and watch TV and smoke and puke and sleep and wake up and redo everything over again until a friend has some spare time and calls me up and says to me "let's hang out, we'll knock back some bottles and smoke some cigars!" Problem for me is summer sucks out here! Mosquitos, humidity, it's hot and miserable as fuck! I hate the outdoors out here in summer so I have to drink myself to death to cure the fucking boredom of the indoors! My friends all still work even though they should retire by now, they can't or just choose not to. So I get bored this time of the year and the way I cope is binge drinking. At some point my brain gets too liquidated to notice I even care in the first place and that seems to help me mentally despite the damage to my physical health.



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these are the very controversial tweets that got her hated globally and axed from everything she her herself created by the trans community and every leftest ran media Company and got her and her family to be harassed and sent death threats to, I warn you these are going to 'trigger' you and make you outraged and call for her to be canceled and justify her being sent death threats. 


are you prepared?
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 >>/46132/
> bad things happen in subverted Marxist-infiltrated areas
< all America is doomed!

What many people don't seem to understand about America is it is an extremely diverse country. The country is huge, populations are very well spread out. To put this in perspective it would take you almost a week driving from the East coast to the West coast, and that's if you went the speed limit on major highways and no detours other than filling up for gas and occasional rest stops. As far as population diversity, it exists in enormity: people living in California have an extremely different culture and set of laws in place than people living in Texas for example. If you were living in Chicago, Illinois and came down to visit Rolla, Missouri during the covid pandemic there would be a night and day difference in diversity. Chicago would be under lockdowns and mask mandates while most people in Rolla would be out shopping without masks with no lockdown in place. If you live in New Jersey you are paying extra-ordinary property taxes, but if you live in Alabama you pay an extremely low property tax. If you live in New York you cannot legally own semi-auto rifles today, but if you live in Wyoming you can find them in nearly every local gun shop. If you live in a major city you are likely to see more Jews, Muslims and Catholics; whereas if you live in the country you are more likely to see Mormons, Amish and notoriously strict Baptist communities. Anyone who doubts this has not traveled around America to witness the diversity or has done much research into it. That said, ironically diversity can come with some advantages, depending what situation you are in socially and financially.







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Let's talk about Ukraine. Despite what is going on over there, which is sad and devastating to that country, around a million Russians and Ukrainians have died over that senseless war. This war could have, and should have been, prevented in the first place through simple diplomacy. It still can be, only our political leaders choose not to negotiate with Russia, nor will Ukraine's leaders. The Western strategy seems to be "to the last Ukrainian" and the Russians don't seem to care if it continues and more lives are lost. This whole war really could be stopped if we just had some real diplomacy and cease-fire negotiations but NO ONE is calling for it. I said since Day 1 this was a stupid idea, that things will only get worse if this war were to escalate. I was right, and now our state-run media is starting to call for a draft because Ukraine can't win without Western intervention. I just want to say FUCK THAT, no way, not me, not my family! What the hell is so important over there anyway, what does Ukraine have to do with America's interests here at home!? Take a look at their current government for example: the government of Ukraine canceled their own fucking elections and are now under dictatorial rule, it's not a "democracy" which is the biggest joke of a lie I've heard so far. Their economy has basically collapsed, we do not need them in NATO (NATO already surrounds most of Russia without Ukraine!) Several border oblast regions actually held a referendum and voted to become part of Russia anyway. This whole war is pointless, and to hell with our corrupt war-mongering political "leaders" who wish to send us to die in some meat grinder.

Any anons have other opinions or thoughts on this?
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 >>/52341/
> Be patient

Did you really think I'll remain patient while the world is going to hell? I have been busy prepping, making sure me and my family have all the basic essentials and needs to survive what is coming and glad we moved to a rural location to get out of dodge already, read this and you'll learn why:

https://www.zerohedge.com/geopolitical/war-cycle-turns-economic-cycle-plunges-charles-nenner-warns-very-hard-times-are-coming


 >>/52117/
As a Ukrainian i confirm your point, that's all is just a pointless madness going on.  Probably at the start it had some spirit of freedom and sense of fighting for a greater cause. But now everything is clear, it's so over and so sad that it wasn't prevented 

I hope Trump or some other 'merican fella stops funding Zelensky with cocaine and guns and gonna push him and another psychopath Putin to negotiate
It'd be the best of possible endings at the moment

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 >>/52364/
I'm sorry, all I can say is be careful who you trust. We as Americans will do our best to reform our own government in the elections (Trump '24!!!!), if we can successfully do so without all the ballot rigging....  Until then - and unless that actually happens - do not trust us, do not trust our corrupt government, do not put yourself or family in harms way. Do not flee to Western nations either, they plan to draft the refugees because our governments are complete scumbags.

 >>/52358/
No nation wins in major wars. No one but corrupt governments and big banks. Remember both sides of the war are funded by the same oligarchy, always!

Both sides have a lot to lose if they don't come up with a peace agreement soon. I wouldn't count on citizens from other countries bailing anyone out of this mess our governments have created. Not this time around, people around the world are tired of these endless wars.



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