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 >>/62416/
doubt it would work. they wouldn't bother visiting her board.
people are lazy and want one single place where there are all the e-girls in it.
 >>/62400/
> but i want to get high
That's exactly what I wrote:
> Your issue is that drugs are your goal and reward right now.

Speaking of which, you ever fucked while high? Was it better than normal sex?
 >>/62495/
they keep breaking off but i try to keep them long thats why :(

i just spent hours manicuring my toenails ugh i like that this device was cheap and i got it off of a market that has things on discount sometimes and theres like only 2-3 of them and i was the first to get one, i feel like its getting more expensive because it eats away batteries... i wnana get a new manicure device but preferably chargable. its good but only at 100% battery...
 >>/62498/
yeaaayy!! edgy
lol my mom cussed me off when she saw me with no liner on facetime but was loving my eyebrows when i sent her a pic yesterday night lmaooo i love her
 >>/62505/
> i started to imagine piercings and tattoos on myself 
any examples of piercings and tats youre imagining? would you actually get any?
 >>/62523/
i mean probably not lol bcs idk im so indecesive but they look sooo cool maybe id try temporary ones
i love how cybersigilism/tribal-ish + ascii + lovecraftian being tattoos look... so awesome. i posted a kangel ascii art on last thread i wanna get it so bad...

ill look some inspo for piercings too but the gist is i wanna fill one side of the ear with it and on that side i wanna get a piercing on my eyebrow. i like snake bites with sharp/conic piercings like id get my ear pierced but id get fake ones for my face like i cant do that

i cant scroll down the fuckin website and delete the duplicate pics, so fakin nnyoing

i cant repost the same pics because of r9k but heres some other stuffies just check last thread pls sorry
wait ill post on next reply i gotta refresh the website it doesnt get my pics
Cewl I will keep working hard and when I am Stacy tier, I will sweep you off your feet !! I love Cewl!!!
 >>/62534/
> wouldnt i rock these
eh a part of me says you are perfect as is another says this can be good for you to express yourself
but this doesn't answr your question, so would you look good? it depends, it can work, as long as it's nothing too extreme
 >>/62533/
> i wanna fill one side of the ear with it and on that side i wanna get a piercing on my eyebrow
like this yes it's nice but then if you keep going with more on nose and lips and whatever i don't know
the thing is you are naturalyl beautiful so mostly anything works
 >>/62422/
> people are lazy and want one single place where there are all the e-girls in it.
fair, i don't even open the catalog but i understand some cewlbros might like other egirsl
 >>/62537/
well no i dont have the money at all but i hate my nose and would like one
just my nose to be straight and a little smaller is fine i dont want the barbie nose everyone gets

 >>/62542/
lel for easier identification
real recognize real 
on streets
and arrange a deal
hole mole that was a poem or rap kinda shit doeee 

 >>/62546/
any girl makes me blush, i dont believe in tiers about appearence and couldnt care less about societal beauty standards. i treat my looks as if im customizing my character and when i see someone that also does that in a unique way, i am intrigued (not in a romantic way ofc), romantic feelings occur after getting to know someone or at least thats what i feel like.
so dont drag urself down because of your appearence. i like to believe a lot of people think like i do, and even if not theres a person that will find you beautiful in the world. real love is something to be cherished and rare. i wish u the best.
dont work on your appearence only, work on yourself, get better at things you love! of course self care and seeing yourself is amazing! i used to think it doesnt matter but after it became part of my routine i loved doing it and i love that i see how better i look! 

im sorry if this is unrelated to ur fomment i just want the best for all of you
 >>/62547/
yeah also i wanna do my own art (unless its ascii) for my tattoos. so it would be the best way to express and even show my art! i think
and i think id get fake piercings cause what the hell (id get my belly and ears actually pierced) i think i said this already but i dont think i can commit to stuff like that and i dont wanna anger my parents so D:
yeah ikr it can get out of hand easily and if i regret it thered be holes! and the risk of infection at any second!! and im already immunoretarded (compromised)!!! fack

 >>/62550/
i mean yea ofc if u liek girls yore ought to like more than one. and for people that dont fit into societal norms its likely that they find girls in same spaces with similar jargon (ie l33tsp34k) and interests and cultural upbringing (i literally think internet culture differs by the time and amount youre ingolved with it) 
 >>/62555/
eternally loving all of yous <3 i didnt know girls liked me until someone posted abt it necause girls i came in contact on r9k with are generally weird and prefered not to talk to me... and its not about u im talking in general but like i dont care about someone being trans or whatever unless its their entire personality because i feel like that hurts the community. and ofc as youd understand i had people think i was trans A LOT before a lot of people started knowing who i am, its actually the reason i posted tits (they said it was estrogen tits so i posted some more revealing stuff) so YEA lol
 >>/62561/
very nice post cewl
> i dont wanna anger my parents
what about tattoos though you're confidetn they would be ok with that? I guess as long as it's not like extreme whole body stuff
 >>/62561/
> any girl makes me blush,
Cewl making my heart beat fast as always...
I feel the same way you do Cewl. There will always be people who don't like our appearance because what is attractive is so subjective. I can't please everyone and neither can any of the rest of us...I wanna get better at dancing and drawing too! So maybe I should put focus on those things instead...
I'm sorry the other girls don't like to talk to you Cewl....I love chatting with you on here it makes me so hapy
 >>/62491/
> i aint got laid ever
That's sad.
You should go have some fun.

 >>/62494/
Good nail polish choice.
I noticed your nails are kinda small and uneven. Has that always been the case? Do you think a manicure or something could make that better?

 >>/62534/
> rhinoplasty
You're an idiot, your nose is normal.

 >>/62555/
> femcewlbros
You got a way with words, bro.
 >>/62575/
noo they wpuldnt be ok with it only if its something sentimental i think but i gotta tell them first and ease them into it >>/62578/
teeehee omg id lpve to exchange drawings with u and make trades!! if u have twt u can ment me on there so i can msg u (idk how to open messages 😳) and what kind of dance do u wanna get into? i kinda try to learn by watching kpop/vocaloid dance videos on yt/tiktok :333

i lvoe you all good morning i dyed my hair and wll show u after i get out of showerrr!! :pp

i googled 1 ml lip injection and its too much and later googled 0.5 ml i think i like that more
 >>/62800/
This is 0.5 ml, right? It does look nice. There is a belief surgery can become addicting and people go overboard but I have friends who had similarly "low impact" operations and they stopped there and they do look better
 >>/62799/
> i dyed my hair and wll show u after i get out of showerrr
Hype
 >>/62799/
> i googled 1 ml lip injection and its too much and later googled 0.5 ml i think i like that more
why are lip injections so popular with egirls
im trying to do this painting by rene magritte but i feel like the oil paints in this set are not true primaries like it feels faken weird the blue is too cool toned and the red is reeeally pinkish ugh
 >>/62886/
its a painting on an easel with oil paint on it genius




guys i might get discord again bcs a moot on twt (female and girl also woman) wants to call 
ibe been thinking maybe i coulde make discord channel and post there bcs i cwnt access endchan without wifi and bcs its ultimate poop i cant go on it a lot but i think a fucking chwnnelmwould be so guckin cringe i cant stop squirming my face thinking wbt it 
what do
cewl I am one of your only bio female orbiters and I want a chance to talk to u,,if you make a disc please add me I also just followed you on twt <4
 >>/62921/
I'm very afraid of those behind discord and would be concerned about, worried over and frightened of being in a community on there, personally
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i went out with my roomie yesterday and she told me i have perfect hands and wanted me to get rings. idk if they look good im not used to them at all so i think they look weird
whadya think
 >>/63323/
I like your hands Cewl, regarding rings personally I don't like too many rings (like one is enough max two really) and not a fan of thumb rings (but it's cute). I like the size and the color (as you said silver works on you)
 >>/63323/
make sure to do your hand care routine to keep your hands perfect for your stacy "roommate". as for the rings i do like them, i like the contrast between the cutesy butterfly ring and the snake ring it really suits you i think.
 >>/63324/
smh if only i was just carrying her stuff but we talked and had boba so that was nice and she shares her food with me when she notices i dont eat. shes a very kind person and i didnt believe that kind of people existed before her, like she has no ill intent ever.
she also helped me not smoke too much... 
ugh. she has a lot of men in her dms and she told me theyre all a waste of time like i wouldnt waste your time babe!! but im p sure shes straight. AAAA

 >>/63326/
the ring was too big for the other fingers so it falls off of them thats why i wore it on my thumb but its cute
RIGHTT IM A SILVER GIRLY
 >>/63328/
i wish :c we touched hands while she was handing me her drink so she could look at some outfit... hhhh

 >>/6333/ >>/63330/
nail polish coming out cause i didnt apply top coat see picrel wait ill post in a sec
 >>/63394/
maaany years ago, when i was a kid i was very into vns. happy to see they are becoming sorta popular again or at least thats cause i see content curated to me but im sure i didnt see this much people have her on their pfp
 >>/63401/
omg itd be soo cool omgomgomg 
 >>/63402/
 >>/63454/
yes ive read totono ahahaha the time i became an anime fan was in line with when ive seen school days so ive always loved creepy shit! along with creepy rpgmaker games ive also played a lot of creepy vns!
idk which are nitro tbh but aside from totono and saya no uta,
ive playeddd.. fata morgana, i know higurashi and umineko are 07th's but i love them sm, i guess 999 is a vn? i really love it! but i just cant bring myself to play the rest because they seem soulless... 
25th ward, ofc steins gate + type moon works (not all but those that are popular, most gacha games i spent money on are hearthstone and fgo...) (and yes tsukihime too)
uhmmm 
i was pretty into danganronpa as an edgy weaboo teenager, so ive played those and your turn to die...
the coffin of andy and leyley :^)
is disco elysium a vn?.. it kind of iss.. its really good though so if it was a vn it would be my favorite by far i couldnt even say i like the rest. like if rest of the vns are 1-10 disco elysium is 100. no competition.
idk... a lot of the games i play are a blur. idk if they were not really known or just indie dogshit because since i was abt 11-13 i didnt know if a game was good or not. i remember vividly abt a love triangle game and you were meeting girls in an airport or something? idk... it might as well just been a dream.
and of course wonderful everyday that added a lot of things to my character development like the rest. idk if children should be allowed to play these games really. now i didnt have any problems with eroge as i played artificial academy and shit also, but these shit are something else. like hmm letme replay that game where an eldritch horror loli gets raped and kills people and lemme relate to that character heavily! yesss!
anyways i really like what creative people can do with vns and rpgmaker games. it really feels like something else and i want to leave something like that to the world.
i played milk in a bag of milk but didnt really leave me with anything but i wanna play the new games. and about more new vns... vallha11a or whatever was nice but i didnt finish it. i havent played all of ace attorney but theyre fun, theyre on my ds but i just dont play it often. OMG I EEMEMBERED WHEN I SAID DS!! TWEWY!! i havent played remastered yet though. and on psp, I FUCKIN LOVEEEEEEED CORPSE PARTY BRO. but is it rpg maker or vn idk? corpse party was one of my favs for the longest time ever. i know i played more than one game but they all got mixed up i dont know any more. and shibuya scramble on psp... 

anyways sorry for rambling and im sure i forgot some but i love sitting on the screen and reading text it is awesome gameplay frfr
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if iris posts here and u guys say something bad to her i will make sure i will not treat u all like i used to. and since i may not know who u exactly are you are risking me mistreating ur fellow cewlbros! so BEHAVE! or ELSEEEE!! (picrel @ h8rs)
we love choco🩷milk

and omg this artist (yashinoki._) has ocs literally iris and me omgomgomg so us
ive also played date a live rinne utopia, a lot of hyperdimension+ultradimension nepnep, and mew-luv or something? muv love? muv luv?
 >>/63492/
> muv luv
Did you like it Cewl? I got all 3 parts but I didny ljke the very beginning of the first and I stopped but I heard it gets good eventually (I think just the third part really
 >>/63499/
yea its cute and yea it can get boring but when i got bored i skipped through it tbh lol but it can be fun i mean its a game youre free to play however u like right?
 >>/63490/
i dont understand why youre just gonna let iris parasitize off your attention and shit up ur thread. she's a fake bitch that ignored u during ur entire time on r9k and now that you're getting the attention she wants she "wants to be friends" lmao, you're too innocent. if she starts posting here i will 100% insult her.
 >>/63505/
no i dont i like websites abt logging things you did seen or played but i dont have the patience to sit down and just think of every vidya i played... but it seems cool lel
 >>/63506/
i like her and wanna make a friend i just read she lurked so i told her to not be shy and told her we could be friends on twt also. she has her own "fans" or whatever that may not like me, and get all their attention if she wants to. she has been an egirl more than me im sure cause i used to see her when i was just anon on r9k.
and she told me she was going on r9k less so i thought maybe this board can help replace r9k, she is welcome here, and no hate towards people with no logical reason is not tolerated. rather than things they were born with, why do you not critisize what they have chosen to do with their own mind, especially as an adult? and could you even stand things you say being said to you?
 >>/63553/
Cewl neither you nor iris have fans except the 2 schizos who make every orbiting post on this board. If you don't believe me look at the number of unique posters on this board over years.
 >>/63553/
none of these egirls are gonna be your friend you dumb autistic retard, you are so autistic and naive it's actually painful. iris lurks your thread as do all the other egirls and they all make fun of you, sometimes they make anon posts mocking you, obviously they are not here to make friends but to get attention because they are egirls. i don't understand how you're gonna survive life in the real world cause you genuinely seem to think everyone has good intent and can't understand the context of iris ignoring you for a year straight and still seem to think in your head that she might be your friend.
 >>/63559/
yes this is true this is a very small community and even the "big" egirls like marky and ciara don't have more than 10 posters in their threads max and aren't known by anyone outside of this community, this is obviously a very small niche imageboard and only the most schizo nerds would know about this place let alone post here, normal people don't use imageboards, so i never understood why any girls wanted to be known in this place even going as far making their own threads and shit there is no fame to be made here.
 >>/63561/
why would u pretend to be me while asking this iirc its seen on the catalog and top of the thread 
 >>/63559/ >>/63581/
well that is a high probability but idc if they act mean they act mean im fighting for the probability of having a friend
 >>/63746/
> well that is a high probability but idc
I don't necessarily agree with the other Anon, but your complete lack of care about is truly naive.
 >>/63581/
don't be so mean. she can't help being retarded, she fried her brain with drugs. it's pointless to tell a druggie anything, they will just do whatever they feel like in the moment. you'd as well try to explain things to her cat.
 >>/63747/
why would i gaf if she agrees to be my friend fine i have someone new to get to know
if not and she tries to get your attention i dont care unless things get mean and i just simply do not open the thread until things cool down. i know if an anon takes a liking to iris they can still just post in both threads? like what is the worst way someone can impact me over the internet like just close the screen bro ahahahaha

and i was actually retarded before doing drugs because i am straight up retarded from birth :/ i know pretty sad
i dont have anything to lose, so i take risks, it just makes life more fun. its the only way of being happy for a minute if you dont have money to spend 24 7... 


also i saw this tiktok
https://www.tiktok.com/@femcelvictim/video/7354731369638972690 [Embed]
> 4chan famous
? who are these?
 >>/63777/
okay id rather not have another mouth to feed, person to always clean after, that acts like a spoiled child, at least a pet is there when you need them xD

you do realize most of the time, men just tire women more right? women do not miss out on anything when they are single. if you need attention or sex, you can get it with no strings attached. i dont need sex and i get attention/socialization on here and twt and that is enouhh for me.

u havent heard about radfems, 4b movement or anything at all? and im sure u havent seen how men either think its not a "real thing" or lie about how they are not scared. oh they do get scared. because theyre afraid they might have to take care of themselves if god forbid their mother decides you are old enough to take care of yourself like most women learned how to not only for herself but the people around her, especially men.

we are tired of being treated like "nagging" when we give advice or other shit. id go on and on but idc
 >>/63791/
> okay id rather not have another mouth to feed, person to always clean after, that acts like a spoiled child, at least a pet is there when you need them xD
Spoken like someone that dated an attractive loser and got dumped
who else cannpt sleep ;-; i took 2 more 25 mg after taking my normal dose of 150 mg. stil cant get sleepy even. ivr been having hard yime sleeping but never to the point this week i took 2 extra pills. help
 >>/63792/
i didnt date anyone and wouldnt i dont think it matters because i know i wouldnt want to babysit someone for the rest of my entire life
 >>/63806/
just trying to keep people off opioids 😊
 >>/63855/
> i didnt date anyone and wouldnt i dont think it matters because i know i wouldnt want to babysit someone for the rest of my entire life
Why do you think you would need to babysit someone? Is every man in your life like that?
 >>/63855/
> i wouldnt want to babysit someone for the rest of my entire life
What would make you think that it won't be YOU who'd get babysat. kek
 >>/63870/
In what fucking fantasy world are you living where the "uwu cewlbros uwu" are talking about assfucking her, you delusional shitter?
 >>/64011/
 >>/64012/
What are you guys trying to achieve here? I have sex often, whenever I want. Is this just for (you)s? If your goal is to hurt me I'm sorry but it cannot work, it's too detached from reality
 >>/64019/
> Just like you are.
k
 >>/64021/
> God you're pathetic lmfao
bro it doesn't work at all, if you want to hurt people you need to go closer and deeper, this is empty and meaningless
 >>/64025/
You're posting on an orbiting board attacking people for orbiting. Don't you have anything better to do than shit up Cewl's thread? Don't you have a life or something?
 >>/63866/
well idk what is the appropriate culture on raising a boy is like in america or "the west" but here and i think turkey or middle east in general girls are getting told to do stuff and be responsible since like 10-14, my mom says its like "when u have your first period is when you become a woman" but i had my first at 16 or something (because i was so thin and malnourished) so she made me do chores at like 11-12 LOL
more than chores, you have to sit in a certain way, smile, look pretty, makeup is unnecessary but if you have an imperfection you should cover it after 14 at least for me, be home from sun sets, and always, ALWAYS provide and abide by the males in your life.
im not saying males want women to act like this inherently, they just may not know because they didnt grow up with a sister or just had different parents or a family (my grandma is mooore strict on these desu)
like im putting the blame on men way before that decided that if a woman does not do all this AND do everything that the male should do, god forbid it's 50:50 or 60:40. its literally 100:1. with a kid its 200:1. im putting 1 because 0 cant be a denominator. well. at least the 1 could be the paycheck, but we do not see that in all couples now.
imagine a redditor laying on the couch scratching and sniffing his crotch and the mom is trying to get sleep after staying up for insane amounts after a newborn, and he doesnt help, because he doesnt THINK to help, because he never considered it. and a woman wakes up, again, not falling asleep for even a minute, and takes care of both their child.
and gets mad at his wife because the baby crying is interrupting his skyrim (the infinityth release edition with no mods and 30 fps)on switch gameplay  (his steam deck is charging and he brought it to the hospital while shr was delivering) >(INB4 THERE IS NO CUCKOLDERY IN THIS SITUATION)
like do u see it. even if you spend time with a man for years and he loves you oh so much but you just cant know how they will act once you are settled, after a honeymoon, after years of doubleincome, having a child of your own.
sure he might be nice to kids, hell even love the child. but his instinct is not to go help his baby when it cries. his instinct is not to clean but to complain about something dirty he sees. and this is not just his fault, but the ones in times think that they should have all the authority with no power.
a woman makes or breaks a family. a home. carries it all on her.
yeah it is common for a man to work, maybe 40 hours a week!
a woman works for 24 7 for no pay at all.
and i am not getting even started on how much % men indulge in crimes compared to all people. you are prey every second. you could fall prey to your husband whom supposedly protects you, and people might call you a liar, a whore, and if they believe you, you should just shut your mouth so noone  thinks hes a bad guy, it's for the whole familys reputation, right?

i dont know. i am very speculative of the contrary point but i do believe a man can help with a womans both physical and mental load.
sorry for yapping


and i am sorry for not posting here. we did not have wifi and i couldnt access this site cause i gotta use dns which is not possible w iphone on cellular data? wtf?

anyway i am dealing with an scp situation irl. the painting due tomorrow is just
not finishable
> paint white parts
> blend it
> shadows arent dark enough
okay ill just redo the shadows haha 
> paint darker parts
> blend it
> whites are darker
i have been stuck in this cycle for days. i have not begun to study for my 2 exams i have tomorrow and its almost 8 pm. i mean i have studied beforehand but the psych ward FUCKED MY SHIT UP. 
oh and im almost out of white paint. its like 10 ml anyways and i am squeezing it like toothpase
holy fuck i never got a chara limit outside of s4s before
> cont
thats what has been going on with my life
ohand i almost relapsed befaus i forgot to delete a dealers phone number he wasnt active so i didnt but he rwopened again and i saw his story on whatsapp nd he was selling lemon haze but it was soo expensive like the inflation is crazy here and i said like i could spend money on better stuff like a gothic lolita op?!??!!! it would go crazy desu anyways thank u for coming to my ted talk which are also this empty and word salad except the one sam hyde did salutations
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 >>/64095/
im not saying all men are bad but i cant trust all men because of the majorly insensitive and unempathetic popularity, and in that popularity there remains those who can be outright dangerous so it is both expected of me to act kind and oblige but to protect myself
i have to not wear revealing clothing, even though they still rape kids in their school uniform, their joggers, babies that were never clothed for the first time in their life even.
i shouldnt be out late at night, because if i do, i am asking for it. i can not be simply going on a night walk or a run to the shop or return from work while feeling safe

dont think i feel safe at other times...

i am scared in a class, if a male looks at me the wrong way, maybe they think because i dont speak much and am shy, they think i wont tell anyone if he touches me, gropes me, forces himself on me,
kills me...

and whos to say a man that acts kind the first time you meet isn't going to betray you, take advantage of you?

i personally know people who have married "wonderful" guys (shoutout tex beneke) and got assaulted later in their marriage.
my mother even got cheated on by the guy he first got engaged to, when she was young.
by the way, if you do engage with a person that reveals they are bad after, you will get shunned for it. like i said, the situation with my mother. this does not get speaken of ever. i just know it because i read the letters my mom and dad exchanged because he was working out of the country after they met, which was technically arranged! both my grandmas met at a "party" of sorts, its more casual like just a planned visit with many people. and they became friends, talked about how they had single children, they were close in age; they should meet!
well, i am very lucky because they are completely in love with each other. of course my father has his quirks like getting angry more easily and he has a hard time saying sorry but they got over it, together.
together as in they allowed each other to be vulnerable with one another, they did chores together so it would be easier on both of them, when they were both working.
i really like their love. thats why i want to fall in love, love romantic literature, music, paintings, the romantic era, and just... romantic gestures, also in the sense people call dramatic as in romantic like the era: feeling over the top.
i feel things at a 1 or 0 binary situation. when i am happy i am very happy and when i am not i am not. ofc sometimes i am sad but when nothing is extremely "happy" i do not go "wow happy ! " its just "ok" or "nice" most of the time. i think this is because of my autism bc i told this to a psychologist and they told me its cause 1 i cant pinpoint feelings and 2 i feel emotions deeply

uhh the point i was getting at is since i know my dad, which has loved me purely like he loved my mother. like ofc my mom loved me a lot too but im saying my dad raised my standards in men.
im goingg to preface this by saying like i love my dad purely as a parent i dont have reverse daddy issues cause i know you guys make of things incredibly strangely

yes so um please if u are a male personal development is not gay feelings are not gay if u acrually lack empathy do acid or shrooms a few times until u get it
hell even read feminist lit while ur tripping.

i hope i am understood even though it is just in a comprehensible manner if u cant understand the situation and how i feel about it
 >>/64098/
btw my mom wasnt perfect and no one is either and i dont expect anyone to be perfect.

but i genuinely am more attracted to what the person is actually like and their real personality that they mask because of societal stuff. like "men dont cry" is so bs, which was again, imposed by men! the big men said:
> all men should work, be strong, and earn money to look after their family only! thats the only thing they should focus onnnn!!! YESS MONEY MAKE MONEY MAKE ME MONEY I AM GETTING RICH LAYING ON MY ASS BECAUSE MEN BELOW MY TAX AMOUNT ARE STUPIT!
come to think of it this is how most "societal rules" in relationships, friendships, education, home, job... life in general, came to be

how come you do not know about ada lovelace?!
computers, softwares, programming was a "job for women" because it was kind of similar to doing phoneline work. grace hopper was a big help in wwII. im not discrediting turing ofc like hes a genius im not discreditng any men, im just talking about these because people know about how there were many great men, but not that many great women in history; completely trash the idea of accomplished women, which is more rare, because there are still countless houses where they are not allowed to work or go outside the house even!!!!
anyway, even until margeret hamilton who HANDWROTE the ENTIRE code for the software used in apollo 11 mission 1969, but she mustve started before that, the job was for women.
when the industry blew up, meaning there was money in the business, there were more men suddenly, and then it became a "mens job" and women just didnt know about them, huh

the reversed still applies. occupations that are generally associated women have lower pay in general, nurses, secretaries, etc. and god forbid they want to get in other jobs! most do not, and if they do, there is a huge chance they will get assaulted. 97%. fucking. women. report assault.
sureeee, "MOST" women lie about being assaulted because they want to relive and explain their trauma in front of many people sometimes more than once, because they just looove paying legal fees.
if you report it after the occassion, police wont believe you, without a medical report.
there is chance that your doctor wont believe you.
rather than women lying, why are there more men not believing?
do we hear women lie because a man did not believe her?

idk. i just have thought a lot about this and want to be the voice of those women that can not shine under a man that just makes them rust.

i would love to speak more but i dont wnana yap like even more lol i gotta get back to studying  AND I LOVE WOMEN THEY ARE SO SEXYYY AND PRETTY AND BEAUTIFUL AND CUTE
 >>/64103/
> AND I LOVE WOMEN THEY ARE SO SEXYYY AND PRETTY AND BEAUTIFUL AND CUTE
No you love GOOD LOOKING women, not the ugly ones. If you're gonna be shallow, get it right. It's no different to what anyone would say seeing a handsome man.
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 >>/64090/
I will admit I did not read everything, since it seemed to me you had kinda lost your train of thought at some point.
But what I did read, I agreed with.
What you're describing is more prevalent in some cultures than others.
 >>/64106/
impossible ever women i have ever seen in real life had something to be loved. my decision is hardly made by their looks. especially with celebrities, i bet they are all ... icky. cause theyre rich. theyre just not relatable, but of course i admire their work, skills, dance...
i love the asian concept of an "idol" a lot because it makes me wonder how are they actually like behind the always beautiful, cheerful, helpful facade they have to portray
thing that make me wonder and think are what i love. i dont like shallow people that just do small talk. maybe thats why i go on forums more often than most do? idk. i just never get the same reactions and discussions i do in a comment section or real life

 >>/64109/
and i want to add i know how some men hate women, and some that do fall in the incel category. from what i have seen on these places incels define themselves as being autistic. now being autistic you are automatically recognized as "weird" or "uncanny" by most people you interact with and probably think to yourself most people are shallow do, especially women, which have to mask more in general regardless if they are autistic actually. they just have to do everythingg they are told somehow, which autism only makes harder; however!!! women are thaught to mask like i explained before. i mean not mask as in just autism but being autistic and trying to be like "normal" people just only makes it harder.
men generally do not have to surpress their emotions as much as women and can be angry and say bad words. (im not saying women cant but when you are hushed or even beaten for shit like that u have to not do it) with an autistic male, (autiscel in your terms) you are both unable to regulate your emotions that really cant be thaught, and didnt even hear that you should surpress them at all. so when a woman says oh thats not a good thing to do yadiyada and a woman (more often ive seen is their own mother) starts to act more strict, like, dont do that! why are you doing x and not y?!! and get into arguements
and you never resolve them because you cant understand why they are "bad", or why should a word have such meaning; you think they just have a personal thing against you. against autistic men. they think they are ugly so women must hate ugly men.but i think noone after middle school says someone is just ugly like they get more personal. and as an autistic person you might actually take that to heart and they say it as in fact rather than just to get you sad or mad and bully you. and we know like you just cant find yourself good lookig most of the time. like the pictures i post here are the "one" i chose among many other. so they think they are ugly. of course, people who are attractive are less likely to be bullied, because they just attract people much like normal looking extroverts do.
btw to branch off as a woman if you have something seen as ugly you are thaught to hide it, and appear more pretty, because you should look pretty for all the men that may see you. im serious this is what ive been told! and im sure im not the only one. so a woman isnt "lying to you" by doing makeup, she just wants to seem prettier to you so you like her.

i dont know. of course these are just tldr of my thoughts because i have dozens per second and i get lost in things i try to have a deep dive in like u said. but i like explaining things because i am someone that likes to be objective and comprehensive, and i dont like to leave a readers potential question unanswered

 >>/64113/
so close, its both!
and this is literally a thread for me. and twitter has char limit 🙄

 >>/64114/
i unironically love everything in this world to ever exist APART OF LIKE INSANE BADSHIT PEOPLE THAT WALK ON THIS EARTH THAT HAS THE CAPABILITY OF JUST MAKING HOLOCAUST REMASTERED AND THERES FUCKING NUCLEAR BOMB DLC WHERE U DIE BUT U HAVE THE CONCIOYS OF ANOTHER GUY THAT MUST PLAY FUCKING E T AND HE HAS SHORT TERM AMNESIA THAT RESETS EVERY MEMORY EVERY 5 SECONDS
btw my heart is all the people that got misdiagnosed, where a woman is generally is able to express their emotions more than men in society, and when you have actual real emotions that you do not how to deal with and it gets intense, she is seen crazy with their emotions and get slapped on bipolar or whatever they want that day instead of an elaborate test of sorts
and to the men, that was seen as intelligent kids and when they didnt know how to socialize they just believed the saying "men can stand on their own" because we take everything literally. because they were coddled for their damaging behavior (to themselves or others) and was said "boys will be boys"

oh and we cant look into peoples eyes because were "shy" and "introverted".

its both really fucking bad and noone wants to be like us. UGH i hate it when someone says they are soo autistic because they have a favorite thing and are soo quirky xP or whatever or they have ocd because they organize their fucking desk or whatever

again i am very lucky to be diagnosed with autism early, but i was diagnosed with adhd much later. i just thought it was all autism but nooo i got it for free with my xbox
 >>/64123/
gay means hapy or yaoi which are both awesome. quite the contradictory, my guy. DOWNVOTE! i will repost you to r/badreplies so we can all downvote you :/ tsk tsk. do better!
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i only have this website, the meds i take, fucking cool lime, watching tiktok while doing literally anyrhing other than be on here, and drawing ass sometimes left in my life. i genuinely look forward to these only. and the day i allow myself to do weed OCCASIONALLY SOMETIMES befause its just weed and im already fucked up beyond repair right

btw the ui to the right is referenced to a drawing by frieng but their ysername is longer and i forgor

aughjn all 3 concertq and a ritalin have done to me is type my toughts and nothing else i did not finish anything and i do not understand time
 >>/64126/
wym? i like to learn about them a lot and dont know every single one of them but the hard work they put in, them being mistreated by their employers or companies, and a girl gettinf fucking stalked and murdered or killed herself i think are the most i know that i think is what u asked like u didnt add any details so idk

 >>/64129/
im sofry will you pay to open a website so i can learn https css whatever that code thing is and have my own literal blog
 >>/64131/
yeah as well as their 'graduation' once they hit the wall, basically this website but its azns instead of argentinians. also use neocities or something
 >>/64121/
> so close, its both!
is it actually diagnosed or self diagnosed you dumb nigger. I get its a thread for you faggot but this isnt your personal blog post. post more pics and I might read your paragraphs!
 >>/64121/
why are autistic women so obsessed with bashing autistic men like hoyl fuck every time an autistic woman opens her mouth its always to say how much she hates autistic men and how theyre dumb and retarded so like why do you post yourself in places full of such men wtf do you want you autistic bitch
 >>/64132/
i mean yes japanese people like em young but i dont they "hit the wall" especially asian people tend to look older a lot later, like 40-50 year olds can essily pass of as 30
 >>/64134/
they are both diagnosed i was diagnosed with autism as a child or toddler idk the age limit when a toddler becomes a child so idk
and i got diagnosed wth adhd in late teenager years but if you are so skeptic and mean already why would you ask? i think you would still say i am lying or sth

by the way i dont like self diagnosing as a whole concept and i really really hate people that are like hehe im autistic xp :3 hehe ugh it actually makes me imagine incredibly violent shots of them getting killed in numerous ways but i dont know i do not conciously think of this or would do it but idk i used to watch a lot of gore so lol fuckrd my brain a lot ahah i will never let children if i have any at least use internet unsupervised

i promise ill post a pic in a sec bcs i have to refresh the thing to upload 
 >>/64135/
i was acting like a redditor
 >>/64137/
im not saying that im saying how those in high power, rich people, that happen to be men because women werent allowed to work (men made this) made concious desicions that makes both men and womens lives harder. i am not trustful of anyone i meet both man and woman, but if i had to trust one i would chosr the woman because i am statistically less likelier to get murdered by a man than a woman
and i never said anything bad about autistic men. i just thought about how the societal and parental responsibilities or stuff they tell us to do for no reason other than "it was being done like this for years!" and on top of that you are expected to mask your autistic self which is again, thaught to girls earlier in childhood regardless of if they have autism or not you are just expected to be a certain way, while men are expected to show their emotions in anger more than happiness, and are in authority over women. you can see how harmful this can be to all men, but autism makes you understand things in a literal way most times. so i think that is why autistic males act in a certain aggressive or non-friendly, "cold approach" way, probably how they imagine a strong man perhaps? which may lead people to think he is "weird" or worse

i am just trying to understand i am not saying these happen to every autistic man but since i experience masking both my autism and my gender i was thinking about how a autistic man would do it 

im sorry if i offended anyone, and please dont call me a bitch. i didnt do anything to you and was honestly trying to create discussion on things but there is no reason to get mean. it will not get you anywhere.

 >>/64146/
i learnt english from youtube and im esl so idfk what i say at all and its fucking 5 am like im surprised people can understand what i type
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rene magritte painting i did over and pver again which i gave up on (i gave up on all my exams just vibin rn tbh) and no makeup yep yep just slaying playing cooky run ofc i forgot to post this here actually lole
sorry for yapping this much guys i havent taken too much methylphenidate in a while it was fun though ngl i wasnt like high or anything just vibing doing shit anything instead of studyign im sorry but like why would u come here and insult me like just dont come on the thread if u dont like me
please stop apologizing every two posts you dont owe anyone anything and also grow out your eyebrows again. Good night (say it back. or dont)
 >>/64149/
yes thats what I mean you bitch but you get a pass for now that it isnt self diagnosed. thats something I hate too. too many dumb niggers say theyre adhd because theyre just lazy fucks. or theyre autistic because they are weird. I am adhd (diagnosed) but wouldnt say Im autistic. Im just an asshole and a weirdo. 

the internet isnt that bad if dumbass parents actually did their job and blacklisted sites. my child would only be allowed on math websites with those math games and bible websites. 

youtube and social media makes kids want to be gay ass youtubers or streamers or turn literally into faggots.  thanks for listening to my ted talk
 >>/64149/
>  so i think that is why autistic males act in a certain aggressive or non-friendly, "cold approach" way, probably how they imagine a strong man perhaps?
how many autistic men have you interacted with in your life? how many of them were "aggressive" when you interacted? sounds like you're making random shit up cause i can't imagine any autist being aggressive unless they were low functioning and had trouble with sensory stimuli and shit and were having a meltdown, maybe if they come off as cold it's because they're autistic and can't show emotion properly, its always interesting to me how autistic women experience autism so differently from men, where men always describe it as a social disability while women don't really acknowledge it as such and find autistic men weird as if they can't relate to them at all.
hey Cewl
 >>/64090/
> is the appropriate culture on raising a boy is like in america or "the west" but here
In the west is not that different, maybe more subtle? But yes there is some expectation that girls are more responsible and boys can act retarded and rude
> im not saying males want women to act like this inherently
yeah it's mostly bias from the environment and culture
> he doesnt THINK to help
this is the problem and a good trigger for introspection - of course when it's THAT bad you can't self-detect it on the spot, but maybe looking back or asking people around you... People you care about
> his steam deck is charging
kek
> i do believe a man can help with a womans both physical and mental load
yes... can and should. At the end of the day especially in a long-term relationship you gotta help each other and COMMUNICATE.
> the painting due tomorrow
you are selling it? Or for an exhibition? Or just an internal deadline?
> my 2 exams i have tomorrow
good luck Cewl I wish it goes well


 >>/64091/
> i almost relapsed
VERY happy you didn't, let's go CEWL.
> i could spend money on better stuff like a gothic lolita op
for sure

 >>/64098/
> whos to say a man that acts kind the first time you meet isn't going to betray you, take advantage of you?
you don't know, but you never know, it's a matter of how likely different outcomes can be depending on initial and boundary conditions. But I don't want to miss the point TOO much and I understand I can't fully relate to how unsafe women can feel
> if you do engage with a person that reveals they are bad after, you will get shunned for it
True. Always victim blaming, like "how could you not see". This works in other scenarios as well btw
> they got over it, together.
together as in they allowed each other to be vulnerable with one another, they did chores together so it would be easier on both of them, when they were both working.
yes this is how it should be and somewhat resonates with my experience, it's the best feeling when it happens - growing together, being there for one another, really caring for the other person knowing how they feel and what they need and how you can help the most. Effortlessly.
> i hope i am understood even though it is just in a comprehensible manner if u cant understand the situation and how i feel about it
you are heard, Cewl, I am always there  when you want to talk
 >>/64103/
> how come you do not know about ada lovelace?!
She's known among people in the field, but true, not the first person that comes to mind if you think about programming. But yeah is turing that well renowned among general population? Von Neumann? People think about Einstein and Tesla and that's it I guess when thinking about scientists and engineers in history. Leonardo maybe lmao
People should know about Marie Curie, absolute legend.
> want to be the voice of those women that can not shine under a man that just makes them rust
many such cases sadly
 >>/64121/
> men generally do not have to surpress their emotions as much as women and can be angry and say bad words
eh those emotions yes but you are supposed to suppress insecurities, anxiety, vulnerabilities (I'm not saying women don't have this on top), which kinda sucks. Men won't go to therapy as they are ashamed and it feels wrong.
 >>/64122/
> if you can read all of this 
that's literally the only reason why I am on this board, I just love talking to you and have a glimpse of your thoughts and personality, it's always so engaging and interesting to hear and learn from you. I was away since friday all weekend because I HAD to work and I wanted to avoid distractions but I'm happy to read more from you Cewl
 >>/64113/
It unironically is her thread, you braindead retard.

 >>/64121/
> incels define themselves as being autistic.
Their defining factor is misogynism and seeing women as nothing but fuckdolls, all while having a warped idea of what a real man is.

 >>/64122/
I accept your kiss on my left buttcheek (it's the sexier one).
 >>/64175/
> Their defining factor is misogynism and seeing women as nothing but fuckdolls, all while having a warped idea of what a real man is.
Shut up hoe.

Not my problem reality is misogynistic.

That "warped idea" if what you fucking hoes prefer.
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nice sideboob and facial expression

draw more lewd submissive stuff please

draw smiling happy Hisui with a busted lip and tears in her eyes after being smacked in the face
I want to lick all of the shit out of cewls booty till her legs are shaking. I hope she reads this and replies. cewl is love. cewl is life
 >>/64155/
erm do u have a tick that makes you type bitch or sth but yes to the rest fr fr on god
 >>/64158/
by life uh i dont interact witb males irl but since i was on r9k as just le anon guy for a long time before i became a le e gurl that does e girl thing , but i didnt do cringe -18 shit so i never got banned : if u count r9k pupils as real people i say i talked to a lot of guys who are autistic (i just assume they are all guys unless they use cring e emoticons like xP and :3 but id like it if i used it then he started using it itd be a cute couple thing im a hopeless romantic btw)
aaah yeah i mean i am taki g tbeir word for it and i obviously can not have comprehensive convos with them enough to even ask this so:
> THIS IS IMPORTANT IM NOT SAYING LIKE ALL MEN ARE BAD IM JUST SAYING ((((RICH)))) MEN FUCKED UP BOTH GENDERS
>  >>>>/NOW/ THEYRE CREATING MORE TO FUCK UP MORE PPEOPL&??b

lol sorry but this thing below is like a disclaimer so like im sorry if i offend someone i am just trying to emphasize because all human life is nonsense and shit. 

i am just speculating just connecting my autistic experiences with the male experience i observe of course i can not exactly speak from a male perspective but thinking about it gives me a new insight


okay so i just thought like since normies like chad or whatever punch a hole in the wall when football no win D:< or the bread burnt?! like it is an exaggeration but consider this
in my case i have a lot of feelings, i dont like how people say autistic people dont have feelings so they dont understand them
no i have feelings but it is hard to understand when you cant identify it. when you cry happy or sad tears am i supposed to lick your tear instead of just asking ??? anyway what i mean is i have feelings that are extreme. i have meltdowns and i hurt myself so i am only harmful towards myself. so i think, a male, thats seen normal to be firm and easy to get his hand up, is essentially more of a harm to himself if theu are autistic. i didnt mean aggressive as they  murder people. 

i think most incels actually have aspd, and i think they are more aggressive in their words than some people.
it is easy to mirror behavior when you are in a literal echochamber and have autism, i do whatever i can to fit in so i just try to look for reasons. i am npt saying this is a bad thing. i discovered 4chan when i was a kid dont u think i was a polpo(s)ter edgy teenager like its impossible not to be. i know how hateful ypu can feel. but today i feel like you can never be radicalized against govmt if you did not see how the other end of radical is.

anyway im going off wayyy too far 

im saying like i am trying to interpret what it would feel like to be male and autistic. i connect the male behavior i observe and autistic behavior i experience. i mean you can ofc think we have different "autisms" its a spectrum isnt it? and like i said, by societal standards women learn to fit in/mask even if they dont have autism, while society (again burgeois or rich men...) says men cant go to therapy, and if they express their love towards their interests, they are generally a "nerd" or "weird".
this is not how i feel about autistic males. i just think they are male and autistic. i am trying to understand the kinds of people that are all vastly different but we try to act like one another because who said so?

btw im so sorry if it seemed like it, but i never meant anything i said to be seen as what i think is "PURE FACTS AND LOGICK!" at all. this is just my thoughts no filter no edit ofc it will be shitty 😐 maybe i should make gumroads but i wannatalk with u guys its fun i like to hear about these stuff because noone talks about learning about others life perspective on here often
 >>/64163/
thats not me idiot fart
its a pedro that wants to buy chees pizza with ur mone!! 

 >>/64167/
thanks for being understanding id like to hear u extend ur opinions as well cause itd be boring if only i speak and noone contradicts me

 >>/64168/
absolutely. i fucking hate the fucking NOBEL PRIZE THE BIGGEST ACCOMPLISHMENT (imo) YOU CAN HAVE is sexist. they just gave watson & crick an award for rosalind franklins work. after her phd when she started working in a lab the lab pro guy mistook her as a secretary. wtf. im sure they wore coats in like 1950s? but the thing is she recorded it the crazy double helix fucking photograph with xray crystalography which was horseshit at the time mind you and her work was just made public you know they just said omg guys look dna and watson & crick was like bet
isnt it crazy? i mean i havent read on the thing cause theres always a race to find new stuffs and there are some times when different people come up with the same stuff days weeks apart with completely different experiments, mountains of data observation and explanation. but i dont think in those cases ones was public and the woman never got the credit?.. hm...

 >>/64169/
the therapy thing i feel so bad for because i am so lucky i was diagnosed as a child and could talk to professionals about things i didnt understand about myself. it is impossible to know the person within you, your ego and your own lol reference guys?
uh yeah and autism makes understandingn your self, thoughts feelings and the same shit around you can feel impossible and sometimes drive you crazy and cause a meltdown. which i have been shunned for experiencing in real life around allistic people so was not fun
and like i said those things about how a men should be or think or behave are booooogusssss rhey just want you to work work work wotk work work work until u die so dont listen to fucking rich people like cmon just do the thing that you rationally believe is the best for you. (im not saying feel because i felt it was fucking heroin)

im open to talk about anything including emotions although i may be less like um coherent and objective and tjings might start to get surreal idk but when u do acid and just talk to urself it feels like u get it and u can do it and u can do better even!
if not u might get a bad trip and run around naked or sth beware

that second part got me smiling bro thanks really it feels nice that people listen to me and ask questions because whenever im explaining something irl they either speak over me or just start lookin at they phon 😐 so ty i can talk abt anything yey

 >>/64170/
noo the one on the right was a style practice like it isn't my art i just reproduced it 
 >>/64172/
thank you for saying that i hope the same for you because you should have the same things if you are kind enough to wish people well like this

 >>/64181/
ehehehe okey i love drawing lood waymin hihihi

kohaku beated her 😭😭😭😭 why do u ask me to draw lewd and than an aftermath of assault i mean ill do it but tf 😭

 >>/64188/
😐 scalp included? yuck
 >>/64197/
> why do u ask me to draw lewd and than an aftermath of assault i mean ill do it but tf 😭
cuz it's hot

I'm an S and I like my anime girls bloody and crying. Tho obviously she needs to enjoy it too, hence the smiling-crying face.
 >>/64196/
> rm do u have a tick that makes you type bitch or sth but yes to the rest fr fr on god
I said before that Im a bit of a prick asshole that loves berating women. found that women like me more for it than I did being a nice guy faggot
 >>/64197/
I am so fucking confused now. why is somebody rping as cewl. thats not cool u fucking faggot ass nigger but yes you could scalp me after if you wanted just give me your ass (literally cut it off and send it to me)
 >>/64196/
>  i connect the male behavior i observe and autistic behavior i experience
it's really hard to understand anything you write but basically what you said is that since male = violent and autism = stronger emotions then autistic male = more violent, is that correct? i don't really know why you think autistic men are so violent when you never even interacted with one lmao. main reason so many autists are on r9k and other incel places is because most autistic men are nerdy and 4chan is a nerd website and also incel stuff is relatable because autistic people tend to be lonely and find it hard to connect and the looksmaxxing stuff which gamifies attraction and self-improvement makes it easy for the autistic brain to understand, also the memes are funny. and of course because of stronger emotions and nerdiness they might feel like they're weak and not "real men" or whatever and i guess a lot of them feel like women are to blame for imposing such expectations on men and that's why they might resent women, much like how you as an autistic woman resent men for telling you to be feminine and behave a certain way or whatever. although you say rich men are to blame for both so idk. that's just my quick perspective as an autistic retard that has spent way too much time on 4chan.
It is has been observed that autistic men can exhibite a range of behaviors on the internet, which may be influenced by their emotional state. Some may engage in excessive social media usage, seeking validation and connection through likes and comments. Others may turn to online forums or chat rooms to vent their feelings of isolation and seek companionship. It is not uncommon to also see autistic men attempting to form relationships with strangers online, often leading to disappointment and further isolation.

Autistic men may also exhibit tendencies of aggression or hostility towards others on the internet, using online platforms to lash out or project their own insecurities onto others. The anonymity of the internet can amplify these negative behaviors, leading to toxic interactions and conflicts with others. In some cases, autistic men may also fall victim to online scams or exploitation by individuals preying on their vulnerabilities.

The behaviors of autistic men on the internet can have negative consequences for both themselves and those around them. It is important for individuals struggling with loneliness to seek support from trusted friends, family members, or mental health professionals to address underlying issues and avoid falling into harmful patterns of behavior online. By fostering healthier coping mechanisms and building genuine connections, autistic men can work towards improving their well-being and finding true companionship in the digital age :)
 >>/64248/
> Autistic men may also exhibit tendencies of aggression or hostility towards others on the internet, using online platforms to lash out or project their own insecurities onto others. The anonymity of the internet can amplify these negative behaviors, leading to toxic interactions and conflicts with others. In some cases, autistic men may also fall victim to online scams or exploitation by individuals preying on their vulnerabilities.
hey its you nigger its you again. I may have autism based on that. smoke crack off a homeless mans crack you whore
 >>/64223/
i guess i also want to add to this that having to repress your emotions is like self-harm and it leads to self hatred and low self-esteem, which is a big issue for spergy men cause of the intense emotions, this is something i only learned as an adult and through therapy, i believe my teen years spent on incel boards was just me expressing that self-hatred, also reason why incels think society and women hate them is also big part a projection of that self-hatred onto others, men are externalizers so they project a lot of themselves onto the world, largely because you are told you cannot feel emotions so men never bother processing their emotions and then you also add the autism on top of not being able to understand emotion. i think you cannot really do both autism and being male, too much intense emotion and you cannot hold it all in, and being told you can only express anger as a man also i think is why incel spaces are just intense hatred and anger, in my experience that anger is how men bond and it's a reflection of self-hatred.
 >>/64263/
This is probsbly the most sensible and genuine comment I may have ever read on here.
That was concise, to the point and completely true.
hey Cewl

 >>/64197/
> thanks for being understanding id like to hear u extend ur opinions as well cause itd be boring if only i speak and noone contradicts me

Well, I pretty much agree on everything here. You made me think about whether I should help more at home, you say men work 40 hrs/week and that's it and leave anything else like taking care of the kids and the house and the food etc. to women effectively babysitting them. Personally I work more than 40 hrs/week and there are days I am really exhausted, you know I used to get up at 5 AM and come back from work at 8 PM.. That's brutal. Now I have a better balance but still I struggle to do much more, so yeah you made me think. For sure I want to be fully there for potential future kids. And now there are things I do outside work that are extremely boring and for which I know I can contribute, like contracts/bills, finance, taxes, planning holidays :)... As I said, communication is key... And never give anything for granted. Long-term relationships need continuous communication and, I wouldn't say "work", but effort, at least energy, to keep everything alive. Tell her you love her. Mean it. Be present, be there for her. Ask if there is anything you can do to help.


> but i dont think in those cases ones was public and the woman never got the credit?.. hm...

Yeah that sucks and I am sure there is still sexism, maybe even more at very high levels - I like to believe, as that's my experience, that at least engineering is one of the most meritocratic fields, especially in research environments (when we talk about promotions to upper management in industry for instance I am not that sure, I mean good women definitely have good careers and sometimes it is really undeniable they should be the ones leading but is it always 100% fair and unbiased? Not sure). From studies onwards to academia and industry experiences, I met so many smart people that made me accustomed to realizing there are really no differences and having a preconception on how good one would be at engineering has nothing to do on their gender or how they look.

And still, as I am writing this and "feel good" about how we are less biased than in other fields, I recognize there are still big issues. I remember that we were filing for a grant on a big project and the PI said pretty much out loud we had to include one more woman in the team to have more diversity points but then she would have been immediately replaced after the grant. She was OK with it and well.. nobody said anything really. But it's a symptom of something that doesn't work. 

And also, as much as I like to believe I am unbiased, unconscious bias is a thing. I think sometime at how I want to educate and help my future kids growing, and sometimes I think I would like to have a daughter and how cool it would be if she also likes engineering so we can learn and think about problems together, you see I still see it as something "special", and you know it *is* uncommon (hopefully not by the time she's out there in the field!!) so there is that, but I shouldn't see it as anything special based on what I *know* consciously.
char limit reached lol

 >>/64197/
> the therapy thing i feel so bad for because i am so lucky i was diagnosed as a child and could talk to professionals about things i didnt understand about myself. it is impossible to know the person within you, your ego and your own lol reference guys?

It makes a lot of sense when you put it this way. I recently reconnected with an old friend on the other side of the country who I met because she asked for help struggling with depression after a bad break-up. It's impressive how quickly you bond again even after, you know, life brings you in different directions... We talk often now and I could open up on some of my anxiety issues and she is really insisting now, as she cares for me, she is really encouraging me to go to therapy, as it was the money best spent for her and some other common friends (she didn't need to tell me this but she wanted to make the point that there is nothing to be ashamed of, even people who seem from all external points of view like they have everything sorted out benefit from therapy). So yeah, I was talking about me with those "men won't go to therapy". Well, in my case there is also something more (nothing special, I guess it's very common as well), I feel like I would struggle really opening up with a complete stranger and trusting them. Still I know rationally that they are professional and it's their job, and my friend also told me that it's better they are stranger as they can't use anything against you, and it makes sense.

> and like i said those things about how a men should be or think or behave are booooogusssss rhey just want you to work work work wotk work work work until u die so dont listen to fucking rich people like cmon just do the thing that you rationally believe is the best for you. (im not saying feel because i felt it was fucking heroin)

this hits close, I think I improved A LOT there but there is still space to be more spontaneous, more free (:D), more me

> whenever im explaining something irl they either speak over me or just start lookin at they phon 😐 so ty i can talk abt anything yey

they don't know what they are losing, when I see you write or answer that makes my day!

> noo the one on the right was a style practice like it isn't my art i just reproduced it

oh yes I misread, well if you find the artist I'm happy to follow their content :) and still I really love the colors, there is a lot of life and energy there, this is you Cewl, I think you have a lot to say and express and those two pages are really high density! I'll go get some work done now Cewl! Nice talking to you!
 >>/64263/
This is probsbly the most idiotic and self-projecting comment I may have ever read on here.

Occam's razor, ever heard of it? Incels are angry because they DON'T FUCK. Incels are angry because they get gaslighted by self-hating bluepilled faggots like yourself.

 >>/64282/
> i only wonder whats going to happen if all these men get conscripted into the army
somebody's gonna get incelbanged, that's what gonna happen
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sorry i didnt come on here for a while lel

 >>/64223/
no im saying the violence is potentially more accepted and even encouraged by the society, which an autistic male can take literally... ofc its a spectrum and the emotion thing can vary.

yes i understand what you mean and i cant blame men for thinking like that because they were thaught that by the media and boomers etc. when you want to fit in its easy to copy media because you may think its real (i did this lol) but every experience is unique
i cant blame anyone and i dont get mad often so idk im not mad at men because they are men its just that its sad people are so used to a dynamic that is hurtful for both genders 
 >>/64241/ NO
 >>/64248/
chat gpt ahh
 >>/64263/
understandable ofc i have suffered from self hatred and self harm too which is generally a common experience for autistic people i never meant to imply that men dont do that im just sad that it is not "manly" to go to therapy and do x y z. there are so many expectations because you were born with a woohaa or a dingle.  >>/64310/
im really glad that random thing made you reconnect with a friend AND made u wanna go to therapy! also yeah i also lie and dont open up a lot at all therapy sessions but finding a therapist you like can be detrimental. but then i think well im paying this much money i have to tell it all so they can make a conclusion and help me the way it is supposed to be, the more they know about you the better right? anyways regardless thats amazingnnn!!!

@frengchiano2 :3 i follow and like a lot of artists on tw so i can suggest moee people are so cool 
 >>/64312/
emmm not yet thank u 
 >>/64321/
i dont fuck and i dont get angry there may be a lot of different reasons for a person to be angry and a susceptible person can just hate women because they need a place they can relate to, like these "nerdy guys" as another anon put it, and just start to resemble them more and more they spend their time there and more so because we all inherently want to fit in. id rather say they can not get out of it because of the friends they make, a sense of solidarity, and the echochamber, rather than getting gaslit by "bluepilled faggots"
if you want to reference occams razor do not make outragous claims and talk about them as they are hard cold facts bcs u look kinda silly


shinobudrawing i have a lot of writing due tmr and have an exam too D:

also i started going to a new hospital and a new female doctor and it was really good. the hospital is even closer to where i stay so its kinda epic and when i started crying because i didnt want to go to the old hospital she said the last experience might have traumatised me and she was happy i was talking to her and trusting her :,) and theres blood when i shit
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also the constipation med makes me very gassy and i cant physically fart it it just doesnt go out like my anus does not open a bit not even for a fart to diffuse from anyway i hate pooping now i like cry actually when i feel my bowel movement going down at first it was like teehee im a girl and i dont poop fr and when i was doing oxies it wasnt that bad because i wouldnt start doing it after i pooped like once every two days, and for heroin i generally was withdrawing once a week so i just had diarrhea all day but this. this is insane. this is bad. 
btw she talked to me about methadone and i might use it if this treatment doesnt work out and im so excited because methadone is supposed to be more potent than h 😵🤤 anyways ummmm lol  yeaa gtg i have to study and shiz
 >>/64456/
> @frengchiano2 :3 i follow and like a lot of artists on tw so i can suggest moee people are so cool
nice thanks ^^
 >>/64456/
> Hatsune Miku World DOMINATION
yes
> she was happy i was talking to her and trusting her :,) 
good good I still hate doctor z
 >>/64458/
> at first it was like teehee im a girl and i dont poop fr
kek
> gtg i have to study and shiz
good luck with your exam Cewl!!! I'll enjoy a lazy evening today :D Finally
 >>/64458/
You definitely need to be taking initiative regularly to make yourself poop more often, otherwise you WILL have a bowel obstruction and need surgery and face the possibility of sepsis. This is probably the worst part of opioid addiction. Start taking an extremely mild laxative every couple of days of eating/drinking known diuretics, stay as hydrated as possible.
 >>/64458/
stop shoving random objects up your butt if youre having trouble shitting. also you should be shitting every day. I dont know how people dont. I have to shit every time I wake up in the morning
 >>/64467/
LOL dont u remember i was literally almost in sepsis so they gave me mrsa before they cultured the infection growing on my vein because i was injecting in the same place 😭😭 and
> worst part of opioid addiction
LITERALLY like i actually miss having withdrawals and pooping dude suboxone is killing me bro
i am taking a laxative already but u know how i be i always forget taking some medicine and thank u take care
 >>/64470/
:c i only use my fingers to push outside my anus so it goes down i dont put anything in poop rapes me anyway
 >>/64489/
workin on it cuh
 >>/64495/
> :c i only use my fingers to push outside my anus so it goes down i dont put anything in poop rapes me anyway
you must have some pretty big logs for your shit to hurt that bad. eat some fiber like prunes you nasty whore. marry me as well
 >>/64497/
im not marrying someone thats been calling me a bitch and a whore! youre so confusing. i swear i wish i was shitting huge logs so it would make sense that it hurts right? but no. i just fucked my organs up so bad it hurts when i just start pushing like it just hurts because it stretches ofc it has to do with the size too BUT I DONT SHIT BIG wnd when i have to shit big.. i feel it... i try to push but theres no way. i take a lot more laxative and then spend all day trying to let the gas out but i cant FARTT LIKE I CANT MY ANUS CANT EVEN OPEN FOR A FART and then i cry until i poop


anyways has anyone read symphonic rain i tried going on 4chan to ask for opinions but its blocked :v
 >>/64502/
how did you fuck up your organs to that level? youre going to have poopy butt syndrome by the time youre 30. shit will just start leaking out your ass. I can help you open your anus bitch now marry me
 >>/64458/
> like my anus does not open a bit not even for a fart
Stop making me hard.

 >>/64502/
Ok serious answer; try drinks with artificial sweetener in it. Preferably ones that don't come with a lot of other garbage. Drink 1L over the course of a day and see if it changes your poop or if it's just going to come out on its own. Do this for 3-4 days and you definitely should feel a change.

 >>/64510/
> how did you fuck up your organs to that level?
Very hard drugs, the withdrawal and the medication. They're all doing their part, but mostly it comes from the withdrawal.
You should definitely see a doctor but in the meantime try laxatives that you mix into water, instead of pills. In the US the most popular one is Miralax, not sure if you have that there but something similar should be on the market. They’re better and what hospitals advise people to use before any bowel-oriented procedures to clean the gut out with.
 >>/64557/
I should be more specific. Look for OSMOTIC LAXATIVES. Instead of just stimulating the intestines to force a movement, they draw water into the bowels to soften the stool, which is what you need most since it’s so painful and hard. Chug a ton of water and take something like this and it should work. Once you get the current blockage out of your system, you MUST keep drinking tons of water every single day to keep your stool softer, and I’d suggest taking this specific sort of laxative on a weekly or twice-a-week basis for maintenance for as long as you’re still either addicted to or withdrawing from opioids. STILL SEE A DOCTOR even when the current blockage clears up. They will repeat what I’ve said and if you’re open about opioids with them they’ll likely tell you a regimen to stick to.
cewl went to the hospital for her buttpain and they locked her up in a psych ward and threw away the key
it's over
 >>/64510/
fair at least i would shit my thought was like having to carry a bag that is surgically inserted for me to not shit but just remove from intestine >>/64515/
hmmm can i stream things i pirate
 >>/64528/
wym im alreadyu addicted to coke zero AND TAKE LAXATIVEWS and btw u mean undigested sugars? oh yea id take some shrooms for chitin but i think they just make u throw up and dont effect ur stool i didnt try shrooms tho but lol i have source as reddiut so idk
and i think pre suboxone my shits were okay i blame suboxone one hell of a medicine but i love it
 >>/64531/
oh yeah lemme just say
> HELLO IM A RAGING OPIOID ADDICT AND TAKE SUBOXONE AND CANT SHIT
they will send me back or refer me to psych and lock me up again
 >>/64558/
o yea u mean undigested sugars. idk bro ill ask the pharmacy guy iu dont wanna see a doctor again its the most thing i spend moeny on now
 >>/64568/
YOU GET IT I KNOW RIGHT THATS A MAJOR REASON IM SCARED OF HOSPI9TALS



anbd why did this shiitty chan add capthchchaha
my guilty pleasure this monthj is to watch content about white women in their 30s scam each other (anti mlm videos that react to their content/secretly recorded zoom calls)
okay guys we gotta help each other here please someone help me write an introduction/theory on immmobilization pklease please ill do the other parts while u do it i will post tits if u help me guyhsd pleaspeleapselase
also lol yesterday i got in on an exam i didnt know was yesterday and got 85/100 loooooooooooooooooool i wont study for anything ever aghain
 >>/64583/
> STOP W TGE COMPLIMENTS AND HELP 
I am learning immobilization but I have only 30 minutes before going out... The one time I MUST go out on Friday night, someone up there doesn't want me to see your tits

At least I can use OCR for the values

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 >>/64576/
I mean the first thing they would probably do is flush your intestines out if you went to the doctors which you probably should. as other anons have mentioned you probably just have an obstruction in your intestines that it causing you pain when you try to poop. 

but if your butt is tight any anon can stretch your anus for you. or just ask your dealer to do it
 >>/64576/
> hmmm can i stream things i pirate
i mean you don't have to say it's pirated, or ask a kind anon to buy it for you..
 >>/64588/
>  what am i gonna do PAY him ANNND have him fuck me ANALLY?
i'm available if you need any butt sex ☺
 >>/64576/
> undigested sugars? oh yea id take some shrooms for chitin but i think they just make u throw up
I have absolutely zero clue what you are trying to say nor have I ever heqrd the term "undigested sugar".
I meant exactly what I said, artificial sweetener/sugars.
cewl was a causasian beauty bressed by god but north korea brainwashed her to become ugly like them
 >>/64588/
He'll give you free drugs after you let him do that. Killing two birds with one stone. Also you get to say you're still a virgin.
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 >>/64653/
bro its not the dealer, she got it from a dealer i send her half the money and she was bringing them to me, bcs i met her for the first time i gave her all that stuff. she was really happy and shes so cute i wish she didnt live far but good thing is we found oxopane before pharmacies closed and had fun! hope i made an actual friend.

oxy report: i did one only and got home a little earlier took my makeup off and changed. no high anyways. ill do more later. its proly bcs my tolerance is very high due to suboxone

also look at these pics. my forehead is showingn in those bcs i took them while the metro was coming and it was windy lol i have a fiveheaddd lmao its normal sized but its big compared to my features so ir looks so big: anyways thank u for reading :)
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and she gave me these mini tictacs AND THERES NO TICTACS IN TURKEY I MISSED IT SM lmao she told me she puts pills in them and hides from her mom 😭😭 and she gave me these makeups that werent open for free because her cousin is an influencer like what. anyways omg she was so cute im so happy i found a girl junkie that actually talks to people other than her bf and isnt brainfried and boring i love her
I'm glad you met a nice friend Cewl pls just don't overdo it with pills ok and your forehead is not that big lmao you look very pretty
 >>/64660/
Cewl you type like youre two different people its weird. is your friend one of the egirls or just a local junkie? idk where youre from cewl but you got to be careful of other junkies. they are bitches and will sell you out for a small hit especially a girl like yourself princess
 >>/64663/
ty
 >>/64664/
it depends on my mood and energy a lot lol idk i dont notice much difference personally
shes a local person we met ona telefram group i texted her because she was trolling aomeone that was trying to flirt with her lol and imo also i can say bcs of the junkies i met, i think an overwhelming majority are nice people, misunderstood, and have a bad mental case in some way. normally people dont listen or talk over me but when high there is this solidarity that makes you understand esch other its so nice like being friendly is so awesome
 >>/64668/
idk how you egirls get access to that shit. id love to try that shit. every egirl has been addicted to drugs at some point. I just want to live a little. sick of being a boring ass neet.
 >>/64674/
Just being fucking retarded.
Everybody with internet access can order any drug if they got the money.

 >>/64653/
Did you run through the rain there or why is your hair so sweaty?

Also, smoking is bad for you.
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i have made a bad desicion today, which was in fact not doing oxycoeone, it was visiting r9k. its awesome that theres a general for girls i talked a lotthere but the majority of guys got even more petty and full of bias its impossible to talk to them and even if u dont they just come and reply to you out of nowhere shittalk you cant have a comprehensive conversation there

 >>/64674/
its not about being an egirl lel i was doing shit long before i became an egirl. i was very interested in drugs since i was a teeb and overcame a lot of fears and anxiety to do it lol its been kinda theraputic that way if u think about it. why do u think being a neet makes yu ynable to get it? do u have a streak like you cant get out of your house and get on some train and get out agter 30 mins and the meet the guy you met on telegram its not very hard lol well ay least gere
 >>/64676/
lmao i wish. i spent a lot of money, well hey at least i have to eat less then :D
 >>/64695/
wtf how come u gotta be retarded to get drugs 😭 whats the thought process behind that and yeah it was raining it fucked my hair up ughh just look at the pics i posted later it was ruined

ill be painting my nails, i chose pastel colors sorry ill ask next time hehe
 >>/64716/
> why do u think being a neet makes yu ynable to get it? do u have a streak like you cant get out of your house and get on some train and get out agter 30 mins and the meet the guy you met on telegram its not very hard lol well ay least gere
well its exactly that I cant get out of the house and dont know where to go. this is why you should marry me cewl so you can get me hooked on that and we can do drugs together
 >>/64716/
> wtf how come u gotta be retarded to get drugs 😭 
I actually meant to write "just DON'T be retarded and you can figure it out", but tbh you gotta be pretty retarded to do hard.
No offense, cewl.
 >>/64745/
No offense, anon.
but you seem kinda nervous, even your sentences are all over the place ahaha. dont be too excited, its just me. you dont have to bully me just to feel something, we can be happy together just by talking nicely :D

im at the lab, i finally got my mobile data to work on endchan!!!
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 >>/64756/
u guys are literally so nice thank u omg. i think my fingers are long because i was playing the piano a lot until i stopped growing up so maybe thats why i have fingers like that and theyre kinda funky cause im hypermobile and i used to get bullied because of the skin bw my fingers looks like ducks?? idk i now think they were just saying mean stuff just to be mean with no sense.. lol
 >>/64755/
> btw im wearing rings :D im starting to thinj theyre actually cool
Beautiful hands!!! Nice you take good care of them! I told you I was not convinced about thumb rings in general but I changed my mind it's good :D
 >>/64784/
> because of the skin bw my fingers looks like ducks??
wtf kids are so randomly mean
Sometimes I think parents shouldn't do things like giving weird names to their kids as they will be at higher risk of bullying but hey assholes will always find a way
Yo Cewl do you have any tips for studying and getting assignments submitted on time? You seem to stay pretty busy with a lot on your mind on top of that so I'd appreciate any advice.
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ipad cam makes my face look so round lol

 >>/64787/
... source?
 >>/64788/
ahh ty ty lol like i said that ring doesn't get small enough for my other fingers, it always falls off so thats the only place i could wear it anyways im glad it doesnt look weird :D
i dont think they were bullyin my name my name is pretty common where i live at least but since we had more than one in a class they always called me the short s... -_- 
and yea esp girls are so mean when they find an easy target that wont snitch like me. i didnt / couldnt even tallk back lel. 
 >>/64795/
uhhh
> take aderall
lol anyways what i do is i study after classes if i can, i dont want to study a lot just before exams because then theres so many stuff i have to study. i dont go out much so i spend my weekends studying too. for a report, i start with the easiest stuff, cover page, formatting, materials, then results, then intro and discussion. before i start writng i like to find references before because although i write on pc i can read articles on my phone too. idk if rhis can apply to your assignments. if it's a question/maths based class i study by hiding the answer we did in class and try to find it by myself. i dont study by time but by blocks. like i take a break when i finish x subject and i stick by it because time isnt real. uhhh i like to open youtube essay stupid shit it has to be only a little interesting or an esports match. because if its too interesting i might end up watching it instead of studying. i study by writing, thats the way i think my brain best accepts information. i read the material and try to shorten it in my notes, than on a blank page i write what i remember, then i add the stuff i missed with a different color. i like to read the book if there is one, especially parts where they gives examples on something if its kinda theoretical. uhh if theres anything more specific you can ask me that directly too
 >>/64742/
> lel y want me to marry you so i can buy drugs for you lmao
I have money, you have access to them. that is what I meant you bitchy bitch
 >>/64784/
> i used to get bullied because of the skin bw my fingers looks like ducks??
what the fuck kinda schools were you going to for you to be getting bullied like this your whole life?? you're still getting bullied at uni? why didn't you choose to go to a uni in a first world country like germany instead of some backwards shithole like turkey?
 >>/64796/
hhi cewl you look very beatuiful like the most beautiful woman at the traphouse. are you testing out makeup for the upcoming wedding?
 >>/64816/
bet id make better h than u :v
 >>/64818/
because my parents didnt allow me to go that far ;-; and i have relative that lives in turkey. and i was severely bullied in hs so much that i got a doctors notice that allowed me to neet basically. but i still went for exams. i wouldnt say get bullied but im more invisible to everyone, noone talks to me etc. and i got ridiculed for wearing noise cancelling earphones "theyre so weird and big, i couldnt wear them ahha" type "jokes" and stuff. i basically only get talked to if someone is going to say how weird i am. but i dont care about it anymore. i envy those normies, oh to be a simpleton...
 >>/64819/ 
yes tf? you ever watch house md? hes an opioid king like i am. and oxycodone is not heroin! its a different derivative of morphine mind you... and im not doing it that bad!
 >>/64822/
mm yea i did a more dark one i posted it on twt lol i hated it i looked like jeff the killer lmao
 >>/64796/
beautiful Cewl 

> esp girls are so mean when they find an easy target
yeah it fucking sucks and it's mostly one or two very mean people and the others just join the group to feel like they are on the strong side or just avoid being targeted 

> i study by writing
based based based!!!!!!

OK brothers and sister you triggered me talking about studies so here it is the ultimate guide for learning anything (not true I mean technical subject matter)

GOLDEN RULES
1. BE PASSIONATE. this should be obvious but hey that's why it's a golden rule. You MUST genuinely be interested in what you're studying. I know, it's unlikely you find 100% of your lectures and topics SUPER interesting but if you hate most of it what the fuck are you doing with your life go study something else bro / sis
2. PAY ATTENTION AT CLASS. Yep. You MUST learn during class. Get there with enough energy and focus (not easy I know!) and the INTENTION to learn. If something is unclear, ask. There is no dumb question. If it doesn't work during the lecture, GO FIND THE LECTURER and ASK, he's there to TEACH, GO.
3. DON'T STOP UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND. What I mean is: do not take shortcuts in your learning path. You are here to UNDERSTAND. You are not here to memorize or to learn how to pass a test. Something must click and you have to KNOW you are mastering the topic (we will see later how to do it). This means no handwavy halfassed illusion of understanding. IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW. If you don't, you shouldn't trick yourself into believing you know. This takes more time at first but is a HUGE time unlock all things considered. 


Rule number 2 forces you to study at a regular pace, do NOT fall behind (yes sometimes it's impossible, well this is the ideal condition, then you have backup plans ofc). Rule number 1 and 3 give you the necessary foundation. (didn't think about the order, never wrote down my thoughts on this)


Now that we are down with the golden rules, let's move to
GENERAL TIPS
1. WRITE DOWN STUFF. Yep what works for our dear Cewl works for a lot of other people! You might think it's not time efficient but hey IT WORKS. On top of being a good *input* for knowledge, it is also a very good test to truly know you *understand* (rule 3) the topic. When you write down stuff you cannot easily BULLSHIT yourself into believing you understood. Towards the similar goal: PRESENT. Yep. Teach. Explain the topic to someone else and see how it goes. Which leads me to tip number 2.
2. GET A BUDDY. Studying together can be a huge waste of time if it's just spending time together and get distracted. What works is having someone you click with and can help you bounce back ideas. What you don't understand, they will. What they don't, you will. Present ideas to each other. Question EVERYTHING until you know you know.
ALERT: do NOT fall in love with your study buddy lol
3. Related to 1 again kek - DRAW DIAGRAMS - ok maybe it's just me I'm more visual but it helps a lot to make summaries with flow diagrams, maps, hell just give me bubbles and arrows and I'll make it work
 >>/64823/
> because my parents didnt allow me to go that far ;-; and i have relative that lives in turkey. and i was severely bullied in hs so much that i got a doctors notice that allowed me to neet basically. but i still went for exams. i wouldnt say get bullied but im more invisible to everyone, noone talks to me etc. and i got ridiculed for wearing noise cancelling earphones "theyre so weird and big, i couldnt wear them ahha" type "jokes" and stuff. i basically only get talked to if someone is going to say how weird i am. but i dont care about it anymore. i envy those normies, oh to be a simpleton...
you know all of this is super relatable to me cause i got the same kind of bullying my whole life because of my autism and being weird, i never met any girl that got bullied like this so i thought this stuff only happened to boys but based on your experiences it seems like girls are no different than boys at all, same kind of bullying and all. i feel like if i had grown up in a first world country i may have been bullied less but then i think i would have ended up becoming a school shooter or something cause that seems to be what first world autists do.
 >>/64824/
yeah but im not doing it now, and im not a whore, so whyd you call me a heroin whore? and how can i forget what drug i did. youre trying to be mean but youre so stupid it just makes you look creepy
 >>/64825/
yasss ur so right!! we should start a studying group omggg every day im thinking more abt actually creating a discord channel
 >>/64826/
bitchanon is a newfag
r we surprised?
 >>/64831/
yea i think its due to my autism too. maybe they cant see it, point it out directly, but they feel we are different, which are weird to them, those simpletons being only the same creeped out by difference. hell they even get afraid of colors! BLACK ! and americans are like AHHHHH!!

lol anyways im glad i made u notice something. i think no experience is inherently because of a gender or sex. every person may encounter the same thing and act the same way. tying it to gender is made up, just to polarize peoples beliefs and make them radicalize easier and be mad at each other. you see how most opinions have one shitty and or the other? its never gray? ugh. why cant people just understand every human is human?.. i dont get it. their answer to this is never something original they thought of, all some shit theyve been influenced by someone with incredibly higher power from them, and they think they can have the same power if they believe so. anyways what was i saying? oh yeah i mean im glad i was able to make you emphatize with autistic women because we exist im kinda joking with this last sentence but u get it lel
 >>/64836/
>  tying it to gender is made up, just to polarize peoples beliefs and make them radicalize easier and be mad at each other.
yeah .. this has been happening on 4chan for like well over a decade now, angry normie men with fucked up political beliefs seek out places where there are vulnerable autistic men to try to radicalize them to further some political agenda of theirs and try to get to them to commit terorist acts and autists always get caught up in this stuff cause they are desperate for acceptance from others especially other men and they may act violentally towards others esepcially women to show to the other males that they can be manly too.. its sad to me to see what has been happening with autistic men in recent years tbh.. incels have completely ruined autists and unfornately autistic men have such low self esteem that they easily fall for the incel stuff and are at high risk of radicalization
 >>/64833/
> yeah but im not doing it now, and im not a whore, so whyd you call me a heroin whore?
What in the absolute fuck are you talking about? I never called you any kind of whore.

> youre trying to be mean but youre so stupid it just makes you look creepy
You are confusing me with somebody else or having a schizo moment.
I called the other Anon a retard for not being able to figure out how to order drugs online and doing hard drugs low IQ. Both of which are true.
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lol this retard begged me to brush him then started purring and went eating right then, you can hear him purr while eating im so glad i caught it fat biiiitch lmao. anyways i wanna order some snacks that i will throw up right after. any reccomendations?

 >>/64850/
awww faggot thank you faggot <3

 >>/64851/
> autists always get caught up in this stuff cause they are desperate for acceptance
YESSS i tried to say this earlier on this same thread i believe. 
> they can be manly too
that "manly" word is so dangerous, its what made a lot of great men toxic. that thought still makes people not being able to be in a good fulfilling relationship that two people support each other and are open totalk abt everything. this makes men bottle up their emotions in order to be "manly", which is actually impossible since the goalpost moves every time theres an achievement.

you can be lucky enough to have wonderful parents that will raise you away from these harmful societal positions that you "HAVE" to be in, but you will meet people that satisfy the gender norms. 

of course it applies to being "girly" too but i think i talked enough of it but if anyone doesnt believe girls face problems because we can have "pretty privilege" and we get anywhere we can, its literally a concept created by men; men allow women to do or not do based on their aesthetics. like how youre supposed to look and dress a certain way if you want to get promoted hired taken seriously etc its mostly based on your looks or your skills, and you cant wear the things you want because men percieve you sexually because of whatever they want. take the lolita fashion as an example, it is quite literally a jab at how men see clothes targeted at children "sexy" or shit when they just want to look cute for themselves and other girls. or the state of seifuku today.

anyway i talked too much
 
incels are even more of a rabbit hole that will make us speak even more as we all know lol, but i will say the echochamber incels cant get out of because they want to be validated on giving up and blaming everything else, because its easier that way and importanty they get shunned maybe by the only people they talk to if they succeed in doing the things they want to do... world is so sad.

 >>/64856/
sorry Anonymous i mustve confused you with Anonymous! haha you guys seem like dopplegangers!
 >>/64868/
> sorry Anonymous i mustve confused you with Anonymous! haha you guys seem like dopplegangers!
Nowhere in that string of messages were you called a whore.
 >>/64868/
this cat is living the dream
> anyways i wanna order some snacks that i will throw up right after. any reccomendations?
whyyy throwing up
recommending pistachios. I want pistachios now. Any nuts, seeds, dry fruit will do
 >>/64882/
> two late i got salt & vinegar lays chips and a soongebob lighter
nice cewl enjoy your snack but pls dont trhow it up giving yourself eds isnt fun
 >>/64889/
> but i gotta los weigh
if u gotta lose weight then do it the healthy normal way like everyone else, there are no shortcuts in life, and if something seems like a shortcut then it has a catch always.. besides i dont think eating a chips will change anything its like not even 0.1% of total monthly calorie intake
 >>/64893/
lol tbh yeah i mean i kinda like my weight too i lost a little and ive been eating bread and labneh honey and cinnamon on it so this chip is kinda like a step up for me hopefully i dont get addicted to this though

and salt & vinegar lays is kinda like a shiny here so i like buying it i dont feel bad :^) i also wanted to get flamin hot cheetos but i forgot to look for it ggghh i got cheetos with cheese so 3 would be overkill anyways ill get it later.
poop log: i havent shiet in 2 says
hypnotizing you all to join my discord server
rules:
no doxxing and death threats
no retarded opinions like being a nazi or sometnig and if u do keep it down
be nice to each other and be the best to me you have to be nice to me most
if you be nicer to someone else you will be beaten to death
being mean for the shits is allowed

https://discord.gg/fg4twmUP
hi cewl i think ur funny n cute and a talented artist :3 i'd ask to be frens if i wasn't so shy 
ur the only egirl i like
 >>/65023/
why dont you go out and celebrate you bratty lazy bitch? im going to make you get your life in order and fall in love with me from just berating you.
what the fuck she used to be so bubbly, autistic and innocent and now even her face looks different and she looks like a tiktok alt bpd mean-bitch instead of the original cewl... I mean I never orbited her at all but it seems like the original cewl died because the new cewl looks like a whole new person. Cewl orbitors must feel bad with these news
 >>/65023/
i forgot i wrote this and i was like who would impersonate me
 >>/65027/
OMG UR SO CUTE dont be shy im not a mean person i swear you can join the discord server or follow me on discord if y wanna talk to me i swear im not scary u can just chill
 >>/65028/
becaus its a childrens holiday and they just uhh have performances at schools so i couldnt celebrate it also i wouldnt because im lazy 
and no my life is in order already im a high functioning jelqing opium addict that cant shit on the skibidi toilet but i can do my fanum taxes so baby gronk can make me study all those gyatts so i can be the next rizzler and get out of ohio
 >>/65125/
calm down bro i just dyed my hair black like
also i like blonde cewl but i think black suits my pale cool-undertone skin way better
 >>/65139/
>  i swear you can join the discord server or follow me on discord if y wanna talk to me
maybe maybe .. i think i'm better off admiring you from afar for now desu. i know you're probably not mean but cute girls scary ;__;
do you have any new drawings you could share?
 >>/65155/
YASS ITS POPPING OFF FR FR
 >>/65161/
hm lets go to hell gaybo <3
 >>/65171/
ahh i understand ofc i cant force u but i think dveruone would welcome u maybe u can join but not talk until ur ready, ill be glad to have u there. and i will post my art there too but i can post hre for u also
 >>/65196/
best fans cewl fans!
 >>/65229/
teehee~ dont get it wrong, i just wsnted to show u guys my new socks...
 >>/65250/
> hm lets go to hell gaybo <3
ill give you a ride there on my motorcycle while blasting highway to hell bitchgirl. dont call me gay though ill make you eat my dick
 >>/65312/
most of ac/dc is overplayed and all sounds the same. if youve heard one of their songs youve heard all of them. i love you bitchgirl marry me
 >>/65273/
I don't hate you, you're entertaining.
But your typing is sometimes just going too far in the "so quirky incorrect typing" direction that after a few sentences I just skip the rest.
 >>/65313/
bitchboy come hang out in our discord free pussy in bio
 >>/65319/
lol u might as well that sez im hi so i wouldnt read what i wrote too
 >>/65322/
shes based for being a fellow junkie but she fucked old guys for it iirc so kinda cringe but its kinda candy (2006) ft. heath ledger coded so i forgive her im a ciara supporter to heart im a ciara defender even tho she fucked fat ogres 
 >>/65453/
lmao what an awesome pic
 >>/65459/
> junkie = gross
are u normie or younger than 20 man drugs are epic

and yess guysss you should all come to our awesome discord server where we have full on e-sex all day no discriminations
 >>/65467/
>  >junkie = gross
> are u normie or younger than 20 man drugs are epic
Read what I wrote.
Ciara was a junkie AND gross. She let herself go, was malnourished and looked absolutely fucked up. All shit that is very unattractive, plus a junkie.
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