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clever girl, labs are more important than some vids

cewl will graduate and invent new drug without any drawbacks of heroin and become a multi-billionaire and get all of us robots high

she's an e-girl on a mission, alright
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 >>/58560/
she reuses needles, not shares them

you can't get aids from your own needles lol

anyway, would drink that saliva like it's the sweetest nectar
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 >>/58602/
Cewl doesn't live on her own dumbass. She lives with roommates who are most likely junkies too, demons who probably got her addicted in the first place. 
It's kinda funny everytime I think of heroin era cewl I think of that movie Trainspotting. That's her future. nothing goid will come out of this.
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dried lips and shaky hands
eyes red from all the pain
in the mirror look of fear
gotta get some cewl again

fingers grasping in the dark
joints hurt because of strain
paralyzed is my heart
for with no cewl can't remain
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 >>/58634/
man, that last verse bothers meeee

fingers grasping in the dark
joints hurt because of strain
paralyzed is my heart
for with cewl cannot remain

ESL fucking sucks 😭😭
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 >>/58663/
The funny thing is that none of her orbiters would even care, they would just say oh well and start orbiting the next junkie ewhore.
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just like prostitutes have inner voices telling her shes a whore and as a coping mechanism she starts to rap about its based to be a whore
when you post nudes for simps once
it becomes a part of your identity
cewl is ours forever
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> High IQ
> Got addicted because of academic stress, not because her chad bf got her hooked on drugs in-between blowing her back out
> Draws porn for robots and posts nudes for free
Cewl mogs
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 >>/59066/
It's not cope for me, she's my friend and I care about my friends and friends are not something you just replace. 
I know it's not cope as it already happened and more than once, she vanished and I missed her and I didn't even think about let's find someone to replace her. Once she even announced she would never come back so I know how it feels and how I react. Facts and experience, not cope.
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 >>/59069/
Egirls you met on an imageboard are not your friends. She's going to stop talking to you as soon as she meets someone or goes off social media again. You are replaceable AF to her.
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 >>/59070/
> You are replaceable AF to her.
Fine, she doesn't owe me anything. I enjoy talking to her for as long as it lasts.
And I agree there are different degrees of friendships, I have good long term friends in real life, friendships forged by offline shared experiences over the years are deeper in some respects. It's different. Online long term friendships also have their reason to exist.
Anyway, all I'm saying is that if she disappeared abruptly or even worse because of something really bad happening to her (that was the premise of your post) I wouldn't "just say oh well and start orbiting the next junkie ewhore" and I know this from experience.
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doxxfag? more like gayfag lol

turkroach retard has a qt serbian waifu served to him on a silver platter and he still fucks it up

go fuck some goats, that's more up ur alley
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post that fuckable slutty drug whore
body of yours cewl, you disgusting turkish dog, so i can cum. i want to hate fuck you so bad you have no idea
No. 60058 [Preview] [Reply]
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cewl is a symptom of this ill society
if she married to a man who loves her and take care of her in her 10s
she would not end up being a heroin addict
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 >>/60058/
she's a symptom not because she wasn't married off at 13, but because academia is an outdated institution with bloated programs that forces students to go on speeds to try and keep up
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 >>/60074/
academiafag spotted

we can straight away cut half of the programs and half of the courses and your useless ass will be out on the streets beatch

glad in IT they have certs instead of your bitch ass
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CEWL: hi guys im back.. uh umh i was with... my boyfriend doctor to do some exercise check ups because my horny pussy wound needed to be looked into sry for the absence 

CEWLBROS: I love you cewl! We missed you cewl! You are amazing cewl !
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Cewl's friend here.
Cewl's doctor snitched on her to her parents. They found out that their daughter is a drug addict and a 4chan camwhore. 
It's over. She isn't coming back.
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doxxfag isn't saying anything about her whereabouts either so the fact that neither her or him want to say where she's at means she doesn't want anyone to know, so it's safe to assume she wants to quit again for whatever reason maybe she finally found love or something.
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 >>/60189/
> why would she be in serbia? she still has classes.
one or two days off for spending some time with her family during easter holidays? it's a stretch but not impossible
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 >>/60191/
she didn't go to serbia for xmas she certainly wont do it for easter, also serbia is orthodox and they do easter in may.
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nah thats just when in doxxfag character he makes a lot of normal positive posts here and it's obvious they still talk cause he knows when she has classes and shit
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 >>/60198/
> she didn't go to serbia for xmas she certainly wont do it for easter, also serbia is orthodox and they do easter in may.
oh well, i guess she just got tired of us and this whole egirl thing
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if she wants to quit i hope she makes a post on twitter or something like last time when she went to rehab so i can at least have closure
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 >>/60294/
her behavior is so fucking weird, going from making it seem like she enjoys this place to just ditching everyone and not even bothering to say bye. was it all just an act?
No. 60377 [Preview] [Reply]
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 >>/60256/
> so i can at least have closure
The only closure to anything can only come from within you.

 >>/60307/
> was it all just an act?
It's not an act, she isn't consciously hurting her retarded orbiters, this is just how e-girl druggies are.
Never get involved on emotional level.

 >>/60318/
Pretty sure you are an adult man.
So either act like one or fuck off.
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I heckin love cewl (even tho she has a really weird taste in music)

maybe it's for the better she quit on us
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 >>/59080/
> I wouldn't "just say oh well and start orbiting the next junkie ewhore" and I know this from experience.
Yeah you'd find a cope for why the next junkie ewhore is special to you
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HEY GIRLS I WAS HOSPITALZED NOW IM OUT BCS I COULDFINALLY TALK TO MY MOM AND SHE WAS LIKE WTF AND TALKED TO THEM AND THEY LET ME OUTT IM STILL TRYING TO UNPACK SHIT SO ILL TELL U GUYS LATER (TLDR ITS LITERALLY NOTHING AND THEY ARE MONEY HUNGRY BICHES)
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She always ghosts whenever she spends like 1 day off the internet, cause she sees social media as an addiction. Like when she went to serbia is august, she quit twitter after 1 day there and didn't come back until november, then ghosted again after rehab. My guess is the hospital stay got her to quit again.
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I MISSED U ALL TOO OMFGAD 
I WAS IN WITH LITERALLY INSANE PEOPLE THAT KEPT BANGING ON DOORS AND SING ALL DAY AND I HAD CIGGY ACCESS ONCE EVERY FORTYFIVE MINUTES AND ONE COFFEE A DAY AND BROTHER I WANTED OUT SO MUCH
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NO FUCKING BOOK
NO TV NO NOTHING NO PEOPLE WHO KNEW RUSKY OR SERBSKY OR ENGLISH AND I HAD TO SPEAK TURKISH TO COMMUNICATE WITH THE STAFF OTHER THAN DOCTORS AND THERE WASNT A TRANSLATOR 24 7 BUT I ... I SPOKE TURKISH ENOUGH TO GET MY CIGS AND COFFEE GUYS. HOLY SHIT
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THE REASON THEY TIED ME:
so be me bla bla me walkin to the clinic goin exdwee cause im takin my suboxone etc etc then i tell the doctor like can y prescribe me adhd med too cause like im running out of it hello and he was like ermm no and i started crying like i used to take one and finish shit in hours now it takes me 3 days or more even and i cant imagine it without meds like blablabla amd he didnt believe i had autism and adhd and i was like derogatory term for black people like i was diagnosed years ago and doctors from here prescribed me with it and diagnosed me again like im not asking it cause im a fucking addict like
and then he was like shut up font make a big deal out pf it
and i went crazy bullocks or buttocks or whatevs yeah and he called for security and they fuckin dragged me ten people dragged me to ER and tied me andgave me some sedative ON MY ASS WITH A SYRINGE BRO then i fell asleep and woke up at the psych warrdd bahahahaha and i could finally call my mom today and ahe was like wtf and now im with my cst again finally
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 >>/58550/
Probably staphylococcus aureus since she said she had pus coming out. The colony usually lives in the nose actually, can be treated.
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 >>/60485/
i couldnt learn the culture results obvi but she gave me MRSA effective meds anyways and its a lot bettwr nau!!! no pus and its only swollen/red and much smallerr teehee 
im gonna see her tmr but she told me no risk of sepsis so everything is gud
the psych ward shit was another whole hospital, focused on psyc- MONEY!! 😀
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oh ma gos my cat literally walked onto my lap when i came home and YOU GYYS NOW HOW HE HATES IT LIKE OMG
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 >>/60483/
> and i went crazy bullocks or buttocks or whatevs yeah and he called for security and they fuckin dragged me ten people dragged me to ER and tied me andgave me some sedative ON MY ASS WITH A SYRINGE BRO then i fell asleep and woke up at the psych warrdd bahahahaha and i could finally call my mom today and ahe was like wtf and now im with my cst again finally
Yes, this is a normal thing that happens to a normal person
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this is what happens when reality mogs fiction, absolutely insane turn of events, evil turk doctors literally tying her down and keeping her away
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GOT MY TURKISH BLACK TWA DONE AND ILL MAKE KOKOSH LATER 🤤😍😍😍

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LMAOO IT IS FUNNY
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NIGGER THEY GIVE ME DIAZEM LMAOO WHAT DO YOU THINK THE PIC IS FROM A PORN SCENE OR STH BABES LIKE YEAH I TOOK MY HANDS OUT CAUSE THEY TIED ME DOWN A LITTLE LOOSE AND IM FLEXIBLE AND MY WAISTS ARE THIN AND THOSE RETARDS FORGOR MY PHONE IN MY POCKET AND I TOOK A PIC AS LIKE 😜😜 JAILE TIME
SO YEAH FUNNI PIC <3

 >>/60505/
yeas after talking to my on ward doctor, he told me hed change my walk-in doctor(do u understand)
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 >>/60517/
first time i said nigger sorry iris 😍
i forgot to complete my sentecne 
um he said hed change the doctor and i was of course like thanks papi snd i cant thank u enough with my parens money i have to give my ass to u ofc as u guys can imsgine because i have sex every minute right so here i am at the psych ward only women and monitored wth cams everywhere i sexed everyone
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fackin instant kokosh 

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and yes im a wristcel thats what i meant like i wiggled my wrists out of the uhh tied not rope medical cuffs to take the pic and tell my mom so they can talk to doctor and pay

but being female plus wristcel is epic because it make me look dainty and cute
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 >>/60578/
jewlous pypo always stay mad no matter what 😍 i love pissing people off fr fr
anyway i literally got worse after seeing too many cray cray people
anyone take wellbutrin? how shit is it

also cats were at the same place before and after i got here

and guys my uni full of stacys and pretty pypo and i wana fug em and they dont do trucks (drugs)
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 >>/60598/
> also cats were at the same place before and after i got here
cat on the right looks surprised to see you out lol
> i wana fug em
you mean sex em?
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 >>/60483/
> i tell the doctor like can y prescribe me adhd med too cause like im running out of it hello and he was like ermm no and i started crying like i used to take one and finish shit in hours now it takes me 3 days or more even and i cant imagine it without meds
who prescribed you those meds before?
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 >>/60618/
shrinks are not gonna bother with the finer details of your life story

they see you agitated - they sedate you and lock you up

glad you have a cool mom who pulled you out

now in addition to drug addiction movies you need to watch mental illness movies lol
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 >>/60623/
cewl.. 😭 this shit is sooo sad

ritalin is addictive too (just look what it did Cobain), but to cut you completely when you're recovering from an opioid addiction is idiotic

also, wdym "they're working for the same company"? is this some private clinic?
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when i work on my mental health even for a week i feel like taking care of myself more and more and look my best <3 hope a rich asexual man comes in my way today 😊 or... will you not let me go out in this outfit anon? is it too revealing?.. i understand, ill change... im yours <3

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how come?
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 >>/61088/
You look great, Cewl!
> will you not let me go out in this outfit anon
it's very good not too revealing but still clear you're hot
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 >>/61101/
> i think i went thru a lobotomy last week there fr lmoaaoa
let's see if there are other side effects later! This is not so bad :D:D:D
Have a great day Cewl!!
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 >>/61109/
Zeus is probably the biggest slut of 'em all.
Only makes sense he wants humans to enjoy life too.

 >>/61101/
> think i went thru a lobotomy last week there 
Turning you into a horny bimbo?
Nice.
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 >>/61050/
I was almost purposefully saying it more to creep you out and see your reaction than to see your feet or anything Im surprised you replied like this. Genuine advice now you shouldn't take drugs. You shouldnt be ruining yourself like this..
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 >>/61088/
nu-cewl is becoming hotter by the day but my brain tells me she is intimidating. I have yet do decide if I prefer OG dorky cewl or stacy cewl
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other than heavy meds im clean!! hopefully theyll get lower and lower also so i can learn how to live with myself and life wthout altering or easing my brain
and dont be surprised like i dont get mad often

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nothing really :p cuz i just studied all day bought ice cofy and smok so i didnt even look at pypo 

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thank u it was pretty much money hungry pypo bs im glad my mom understood but ya kno we gotta get up harder and better everytime we stumble or even fall fr fr 

 >>/61164/
ive been eating less but i didnt step on the weight thing so idk

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LMAOOO WTFFF I GOT SO CREEPED OUT OMG I HATE AI
never caus i dont look like that but thanks ai for making me look celebrity level sexappealpilled

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true desu i bavent been gaming for so long ive been practicing becoming a white girl so i get privilege and easy life points tho 

 >>/61309/
h8r becomes banned cuz bean a yellow feva pedro 😍😍 love to see it happen irl

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psych ward food was yucky i think thats why and omg guise idk why mayb cuz i got a new pill added but i threw up all night like i sleep for 2 hours then get up to puke with cold fackin sweat



and!! GOOD MORNING PEOPLESSS <333 tomorrow is exam time im freakin out
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 >>/61520/
last time i was in rehab/psych ward i just told them it was for depression and well it was for a month i already e mailed them and told them abt it saying its just depression but the rest is the truth and im sure theyll make something to make up for it
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ugh worst day ever threw up all night went to the er at 6 am they gave me iv isotonic soin and some meds and i was fine later couldnt eat still but drank 2 bottles of milk with extra protein for like sports people and gatorade went to school doing my thing studying blabla waiting for my paper from the hospital so i can retake some lab sessions
waitng at 4 am i ate some cracker and immediatly started ouking went to school nurse explained it asked me my preferred nausea med and gave it to me all cool and i told them ill be there later tody or tmr to get that paper signed and at 4:40 the mail comes and i show it to them and they told me to go print it by myself i go to the library they told me they only print school related stuff 😐 and i went outside campus found a stationary shop and printed it came back and bu the time i come back they call the guy thats supposed to sign them he clocked off. 😐 so atp im like shaking cause im tweaking without suboxone plus im nauseus and have diarrhea like so cool right then i say fuggit and go hpme and do 6 mg subo lines and now im resting waiting to get better oh btw i drank gin &tonic to calm the withdrawal down but it made it worse and im so pissed at myself because i drank. i didnt get tipsy even though ugh i just wanna die i dont wanna try
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wtf did they do to my cewl :( they lock her up in a psych ward and now she cant keep food down. did you catch some weird disease from there or i wonder if this is a stress response?
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cewl has hit the wall sadly
if she's into make up she should learn how to make a face look younger
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I don't know if it counts as an orbiter, but there is this girl lurking the general and occasionally making some random hateful posts about cewl.
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Cewl, I worry about you. Take care of yourself. I hope when you someday stop posting that you can have a calm happy life.
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Saging cause I don't want the weird spammer to enter Cewl's thread...but I still wanna say goodnight to Cewl <3 please take care of yourself Cewlie
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hi guys sorry for not posting much i feel like shit i wanna do drugs i cant take myself i hate myself i cant deal with my brain and its worse when sober 
the shady doctor that used to sell oxys is back but i got no money and someone told me he only prescribes one a day and its still heckin expensivino so i yeah 
i want to cut myself but its hot and i dont want people to see it i just want to bash my head on a wall over and over and i wish someone would just end my misery 

i tied my martinka today i know its late baba marta pls forgib i was in le hopitel ay the end of march and i didnt see that bird (idk the english of it) but i still wanted to tie it because march wnded. i wished to die...

if i dont love myself, how can anyone love me? how can i love anyone?
i will never form the relationship i dream of... because even if i find the man of my dreams ill probably do some shit to weird him out or piss him off or just distance myself from him because i am feeling emotions. i hate my emotions. they are all so extreme and makes me think about stuff that maybe i wouldnt have if i was allistic. i just want to have a calm brain and form one thought at a time. i dont want to be tired all the time. i want ketamine. i want acid.
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 >>/62162/
Hi Cewl. It's good to hear from you. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Don't think you're crazy for feeling this way, I've been feeling this way a lot too, so I can understand. Cewl, you're so much stronger than you realize or give yourself credit for. I know things can seem dark and hopeless right now, but please don't tell yourself you can't get up when you fall. Please stay safe, Cewl. Make good choices because falling back into old bad habits will only make things worse in the end. Seeking cheap thrills may seem ideal right now, but it won't lead to anything good for you. I want you to live a quality life, Cewl, one where you have happiness and security. You're so loved, Cewl. Be safe.
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 >>/62162/
cewl 😢
can't you tell your psych about this sudden downward shift in your mood maybe they could change your meds or up your dose although i don't think i trust turkish psychiatry after the psych ward episode
> they are all so extreme and makes me think about stuff that maybe i wouldnt have if i was allistic
i relate very strongly to this, not sure if it's just autism thing but it probably is, exhaustion is the norm for me and i have used drugs to cope my whole life too.. i wouldn't recommend drugs to anyone but i would be a hypocrite if i said they don't work, weirdos like us need ways to cope with this alien world. so long as they help you function more than without them then it might be worth it, and it seems like you functioned better on drugs than without tbh.
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 >>/62192/
I feel ya on this anon. Coping is so hard when there's really nothing you can do about the way your brain works....my brain has only been calm and tolerable when I am high so it's hard. I hope Cewl is okay .....all cewlbros stay safe and cewl stay safe too
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 >>/62162/
I love you so much Cewl it breaks my heart to know you are suffering. I hope you can keep going and enduring the pain without takin heavy drugs. I believe in you Cewl you are amazing and you have everything to love yourself, you are smart and funny and just unique there is no one like you, I always love talking to you and reading your posts and see your drawings and hear your voice and enjoying your vidéos you're just such an amazing girl who deserves good and be happy with yourself. I feel your pain and I know it's hard to keep going when everything seems dark and just unbearable but you must be strong YOU are important YOU deserve to be happy and YOU deserve to be loved. I fucking wish I could do anything to help. You know I'm always there if you want to talk, I will always support you
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 >>/62286/
just find a rich older man to support you and take care of you. it shouldnt be too hard, youre beautiful and young. a wealthy older man will give you money for drugs and rent and food and in return all you have to be is a human fleshlight.
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whyd the dealer gimme sum for free? and i don wanna do heroin, oxies at max. and no needles. for now

and oxies from a dealer is expensive the doctor is way more cheap

ugh id have to wait for my suboxone to go away anyways so i wanna do some other shit

i want cybersigilism and ascii tattoo sm theyre so cool
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 >>/62192/
thank you . exactly... i know youve been through the same shit cause thats exactly what i feel too. i just dont want to deal with it anymore. before trying drugs it was hard, it was hard with drugs too but i had goals and rewards for myself, if i hated something too much id rather get high then hurt myself... now "sober", when im bad i always look for drugs. i dont know how many times ive looked all around my room for the tiniest bit of substance of any kind.. i just dont want myself. i cant be alone with her. shes so exhausting. and im scared to tell doc cause i dont wanna stay in the hospital again it literally made me worse all my schedule and routine is fucked and i missed on a lot of class shit

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yess... now i dont like meth for example because i tjink it affected me a lot different than a lot of people at the crib, i wasnt more talkative or relaxed, i just played some games with a dude that had a laptop and controllers from night to morning. no sexual desire change, no confidence like the others. maybe its because i already take methylphenidate (concerta) and may have developed some kind of tolerance? the only meth fiend thing i did was to carpet surf but hey im not gonna waste it.
anyways im tryna say i LOOOOVE downers. like they dont make me lie dead, they made me help not be selectively mute esp around men. it helped me talk to people which i have missed a lot because i dont tlak to them anymore. i think junkies are generally good people because they have higher empathy and have nothing to lose in general. i miss that lifestyle so much. now i have to act some sort of way all the time just so people dont laugh at me. UGH. 

im safe...
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thank you. you guys have no idea how much i smile when i hear i make you happy and shit. i literally thought i had no worth other than my body but you all and other throughout the years thaught me that. i generally dont get help from other people but this was so nice. 


can u loan me 50 too
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Cewl <33 I want you to make the best decisions for your health. But about you being afraid of people laughing at you...let me tell you...you cannot please everyone. There will always be people especially if they can go on anon that will try and bring you down. Even if you've done nothing wrong to them, they're just hateful and want to stir up drama and try and make everyone they don't like into a "lolcow". I'm sorry people online can be cruel. I hope all of the cewlbros cheering you on makes up for that! The best thing you can do is to ignore the mean anons when they pop up, because they're trying to get attention and have people rally around them in a very toxic way. You're our Internet Angel and you will always rise above, Cewl! I think substance users in general have a higher level of empathy than normies or sober ppl. It's easier to feel for someone at rock bottom when you've hit it yourself, I suppose. I feel like I'm simultaneously too slow and too quick for others around me socially, but I've noticed the burnouts and addicts have always been kind and considerate. You're very empathetic yourself, Cewl! Love forever
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> it was hard with drugs too but i had goals and rewards for myself
Drugs are not related to that.
People who are drugfree or only do soft drugs, still have goals, motivation and reward.
Your issue is that drugs are your goal and reward right now.
That will go away over time.

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