/sunflower/ - Sunflower

 >>/9316/
I recently got access to these remote viewers that you say are reptillians. I saw their docu on him. Apprently he had a team helping him out after death so they put his soul in a flying saucer and reincarnated him there with his memories intact.

 >>/9316/
The next two lines of the Tao Te Ching are:

无名天地之始；
有名万物之母。

Let’s break down each character and its meaning:

无 (wú): Without, non-, no.
名 (míng): Name, term.
天 (tiān): Heaven, sky.
地 (dì): Earth, ground.
之 (zhī): Of, possessive particle.
始 (shǐ): Beginning, start.
有 (yǒu): Have, there is.
名 (míng): Name, term (repeated).
万 (wàn): Ten thousand, myriad.
物 (wù): Things, objects.
之 (zhī): Of, possessive particle (repeated).
母 (mǔ): Mother.
Translation and Explanation:
无名天地之始: “The nameless is the beginning of heaven and earth.”
无 (wú): Without, non-, no.
名 (míng): Name, term.
天 (tiān): Heaven, sky.
地 (dì): Earth, ground.
之 (zhī): Of, possessive particle.
始 (shǐ): Beginning, start.
有名万物之母: “The named is the mother of all things.”
有 (yǒu): Have, there is.
名 (míng): Name, term.
万 (wàn): Ten thousand, myriad.
物 (wù): Things, objects.
之 (zhī): Of, possessive particle.
母 (mǔ): Mother.
These lines suggest that the unnamed, or the formless Tao, is the source of the universe, while the named, or the manifest Tao, is the origin of all particular things. This distinction emphasizes the duality and unity of the Tao in its unmanifest and manifest forms.

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 >>/9318/
For some reason the explanation is less intuitive and the word order is messed up when asking in English. But anyway, what becomes clear here is the repeating structure of the text:

 >>/9316/
> The first two lines of the Tao Te Ching by Laozi are:
> 
> 道可道，非常道；
> 名可名，非常名。

Here only one character is replaced, Way is replaced with Name in the second line.

 >>/9318/
> 无名天地之始；
> 有名万物之母。

The structure here is also the same, but more words are replaced between the first and second line. This indicates that the first line of the first section and the first line of the second section cross refer, and same with the 2nd line.

When using the 10ten Japanese plugin dictionary, the meaning becomes clearer and it's exposed the characters when viewed as kanji have more meanings that those conventional translations. It does not seem to say "the way which can be named is not the eternal way", rather 
> pic 
feichang, when I asked Bing in specific about this, does not seem to be a mere negation of eternal, but  "not ordinary, extraordinary, extreme" is more likely. So the first line should better be "The way which is possible, is the extraordinary way". Consequently: "the name which is possible(exists) is the extraordinary name". So the special thing about the way and the name for it, is that it exists, or can be walked.

 >>/9318/
Same thing here, "the nameless heaven and earth, [is] this beginning"

and

"the famous (exact same as yuumei in Japanese, simply an inversion of "nameless") 10000 things/everything [is] this mother"

when compared to line one, there is a relation between the nameless and the way, and the famous and the name, if looked at in the manner of Japanese backwards joke reading as common in anime titles where the meaning only exists by reading it multiple times.
Like To-LOVE-Ru "to love you" which has the double reading "To Rabu Ru" which sounds like "trouble" in Japlish, so the real title is to be read as "To love you - love trouble"

 >>/8172/
Bringing it back to vampirism. The ONLY way i could perhaps see  myself as part of a vampire family. Is because if i reincarnated as them then they would already be my FAMILY.Its almost an easter egg in my mentality. If it wasnt for that i couldn't see it. And even then. its more of a guess. Id say 90 percent.

So i cannot see myself as part of their family at all. but could after the fact but only cause in that case they already were.hard to explain what im trying to get at here without sounding as its circular logic.Im trying to point out exactly that it is but also that it is the ONLY thing that makes it perhaps make sense to a future me IF i reincarnate there.This ties in to a much larger view about race which im pretty sure you might disagree with but its fundamentally how things seem to work as far as i can tell. anyways i work like this even subconsciously so its my way of acting. 

I left out too much to make much sense of my rambling but condensed.

My mentality differs what you describe male mentality to be->you might be slightly limited in your view of males or i might be different from a standard male in that aspect(doesnt matter i think)->I see specific girls in a different way-> with famida its leaning to a positive view but rather the potential for one and also i guess it could go other ways (i never seem to see these).However this feels a bit weird as a family. the same "strange mentality" as saying your parents are your best friends. that specifically to me seems like holding two different streams against each other. its "weird" and fight against itself.

 >>/9320/
With all that said, the first two lines of Tao Te Ching is essentially explaining the whole text right there, saying that the way is the same as the name given to it, the nameless heaven and earth is where the way emerge from, and the creation exists because it has been given a name and become famous. So the difference between unmanifested correct practice and the manifestation is word used to separate them, which creates the manifestation as it it heard of. At that point they are obscured, so you need to stop reading and instead go out and practice the way yourself, not read Tao The Ching.

 >>/9317/
> remote viewers
Which ones exactly?
> their docu on him
Not following, sorry.

 >>/9321/
> race
Not sure what you mean here, it seems all 100% vampires have to be Pleiadan, which is called "silver race". So a vampire can develop into a silver queen, there is no difference to those who follow angels. Same as how elves are the same race as drow, and they will never fight each other despite one being very light natured and the other dealing directly with infernal sacrificial magic and being undead. Any internal fighting concerns non-pleiadans (non silver race) or mixed race members who practice vampire magic. They have a hard time becoming immortals and will not become silver race if they ascend either. They can learn it, but they can't use its full power unless they "get in" and become full Pleiadan. That's close to impossible, if not completely impossible today, because everyone is mixed, with the exception of those who became vampires at the time when pure silver race still existed and are now real immortals. But those are infertile under normal circumstances... but at least that's a solvable problem.

 >>/9321/
> the same "strange mentality"
Consider that vampires don't have kids, unless they had from when they were humans. So any "family" they have is only related by blood in terms of having the same race and being related 1000 years back or so. They would have lost any sense of what "family" means.

 >>/9321/
Ill just say this:im way too antichristian to have a system that functions like what boardowner describes here. Its weird that he is even affected by it more so than me. I chalk this up to their female side being their focus so they never developed this.My antichrist is more dominant than my male so i have an adjusted version where as boardowner seems to have either a seperate compartment for these energies entirely, an even balance between antichrist or male, or a male side that is stronger than their antichrist energy. Hence why they lament it. Well i think they would still simply prefer it anyway even aside from this.


When it comes to famida, a small part of me 'apreciates' some small parts of her. Its like 0.00001 percent or maybe higher than that. That might seem incredibly low. But its INCREDIBLY high, if its even a sustainable amount for me to feel towards anyone.i think towards boardowner there might be a 1percent to 6 percent "semi strained" positive feeling. But that only is cause i PARTLY still see them as a killing loli.otherwise it might just cap at 1 percent.One of the things im the same as other males in is that i like and am nice to loli's. However im actively choosing to let this aspect of me stand.so for example if some random killer was in my neighbourhood i would either avoid or attack them. If i found out they were a male boardowner reincarnation i would be intrigued and maybe see and try to be friends.(40percent id try) If they were a  female loli version instead i would almost surely want to try to be friends. And perhaps even more intrigued.however many other parts of this dont exist. It doesnt extend towards females as a whole. And not even "attractive" ones. That kinda related to what i discovered just now. Even what i see as attractive is pre filtered.if a girls isnt warm already in her energy i might not be able to care about her existence at all. I still see them as a "girl" but in a different way if that makes sense. So for example ive found famida to have something "funny" to me.atleast initally.the same way as appreciation,even finding something 0.0000001 percent funny is rare. I found her funnier than that.it was also rather stable. Like unrelated videos i found funny. Its almost exactly what i find funny.perhaps shes referencing thing i dont understand and its some symbolism. But frankly i dont care. The absurdity to me makes it funnier.its to the point where i find her slightly funny in general.the appreciation comes from what felt like some every so slightly interactions with her. 

I cant tell if you look at her from a more outside view which why you saw her as warm and i always kind of saw her as what you described as the base with the funny(which is nostly my own internal feelings) come slowly after that feeling. Or if its cause you yourself are a killer type that you didnt notice it and took her as warm which makes me the outsider which is why that stood out to me already.like maybe you could talk to an obvious killer and not realize it when other people would,idk.

 >>/9323/
> remote viewers
Farsight institute.

> race
Its something about how i innately see morality. I see a dot meaning the self  a circle around meaning the family. A circler around that meaning the commmunity. A circle around that meaning the race. A circle around that meaning humanity.

Mapping to enlightment the last one would be bodhisatva. Which means every anti racist white below bodhisatva level is evil.

 >>/9324/
That strange family is me describing what i see in humans. Like a 13 year old girl calling her dad or mom her best friend. Its not weird to me for vamps at all. Might not make sense i ditn feel the same way.ilthats nore like 'brothers in arms'. Yeah they arent brother but its a nice sentiment to me. Same way with vamps. That sounds like that bleach episode where they explain how people in soul society cant find their family so they make a new one. Thats romantic to me and nice. Not what i describe here. I was simply trying to say that what i currently feel doesnt translate to a family context and thus would be that same type of movement as some teenager being best friends with their parents.

 >>/9325/
I've always done better talking to people of the "fallen" category. Now I'm using MMO/anime speak partially, but it's gone full circle because in Whitechapel, London 1800s, whores were called "fallen women". In the school of magic it's an actual path of practice, which I naturally have an affinity for. Its energy is purple and you can see it if you imagine a cobblestone street ahead of you, so wide you don't notice the sides, and you keep walking slowly downhill towards a far down end at a crossing road. People are all cheering you on and paying you along the way. Then you read the crossing road and stand against a wall and you feel warm inside, but you realize you are at the absolute bottom of everything. Some try to get up again, but now no one support them anymore. It's exactly like any such industry today, people pay the whores to make them whore, but they they are whores so no one wants them.

The real practitioner of this magic is someone who knows this, walk down there and gains experience along the way, knowing that you can only walk this street once. When at the bottom, you then dominate it, create a "pull" towards yourself, until you gather all energy streams moving down, and you end up with the nation following your command like a dog on a leash. But you never leave the Abyss. And that's the point, because you like it there.

I don't know if I would know if I was talking to an actual killer, but that's not the point. I have still a natural "street awareness" when it comes to actual "dangerous areas". I don't like loud delinquents, I actually detest them and if it didn't come with bad attention aimed at me, I'd want to just machine gun them down en masse. WW1 was made for this. 

There is this thing with stupid loud locals, they only dare behaving that way in some narrow fraction of the city, and pretend they're kings. But just as if often pointed out, they stay silent at mice if an arab walks by or does something criminal, they would never dare lift a finger.

I've lived in an area where walking outside it was almost 100% arabic spoken, I had to walk like 2 km to hear something else. And it didn't bother me one bit. It was a mess, cars were burned up outside, windows constantly broken by slingshots from people who were never visible but always present, this was almost daily, just like an "environment" outside that was completely untamed. One time in two year I saw a police car slowly crawling along a walking path in the park below, which looked absurd, but that was the only ever contact with law enforcement there, still I felt perfectly safe. These are groups were no one will notice me and that's how I like it. There is zero hostility. People who manage to feel something like that are actively provoking it by behaving like complete idiots and drawing attention towards themselves by yelling and generally "being visible" rather than blending in.

 >>/9328/
All of this applies to me too.partly vecause im very fallen myself.perhaps even to a vampire still. The fact i kinda see you as a girl sometimes,the fact that you have helped me in the past and this aspect of you all put together is the the only way we can even talk. Snail lacked the last part which why he turned agressive against me. Well he likely also lacked the first but thats beside the point.


Seems its very hard for you to comprehend me though, far more than when i talk to an ordinary person. This has been a thing since years ago as well.I think you mostly got the message on this one though i have to be extra careful in how i talk and formulate my messages here. We somehow communicate extremely differently through text to the point its strange.ofcourse its partly cause i write u organized and with bad spellings/grammar but its more than that.According to snail 90 percent of when i talked to him was actually telepathy so naybe im always doing telepathy when talking to mundanes and with you its more text, but even that seems strange since often it feels what you respond too is a different thing than i wrote all together.

 >>/9329/
> perhaps even compared to a vampire still

 >>/9326/
And how do you maintain this racism if you are already mixed of several races of humans to begin with?

I wasn't aware of this of course, but I recently made a deep dive back in the akashic records and checked my early timeline, I reached Arhat equivalent at age 5 at Christian school for kids. I used to refer to that event because it was Easter that year, and I brought a doll with me, I had inherited two girl dolls with red dress from someone. One of them was fully dressed and the other lacked panties. I brought that one because there was less risk of losing something more when the panties were already missing. This lead to a word joke I didn't at the time understand, because I told the teacher about this, and she repeated it. The phrasing ended up sounding like the doll "had no faith" as the word for "no panties" literally reads the same as "no faith" in native language.
The whole thing is even better in a greater context, given what a faithless girl with no panties implies. But that was my backwards enlightenment to what Christianity is about. I was 8 when I naturally with no effort created my first demon sun and threw the main societal timeline off course, or back on course from our view, since it was the evil NWO before that. After that shock even, things didn't go their way ever since. War in Yoguslavia hit almost instantly and caused a huge mess.

 >>/9329/
Maybe our telepathy isn't working, normally mine is perfect as long as the other party can also tune in. It funny with some, how for example Farc also have perfect telepathy. It requires being able to use auto translation though. In their case it appears as if hearing spanish in the background and english overlay. Talking with Russians tend to also auto over to english for me when it's someone I don't know well. Talking to my girls I tend to instead channel them and word it natively with my lips. There is an issue with trying to talk to someone over telepathy while there is a normal channel available. I can't seem to do that. It could be that I just reject any secondary channel while you prefer to speak over multiple channels at once.

 >>/9331/
Right, i get that and thats agood question. To me it simply didnt matter. The people i grew up around are "white" and i like them.by the way thats hiw everybody worked. Even arabs and muslims. Less so arabs sinnce its nit about dna for them.one thing i will genuinely believe in is a non racist muslim. But thsts only cause then the religion acts as overatching pronciple. I do not believe in regular people(without rrligion) not being racist. If they are then to me that implies below insect level thinking. Its not an intellectual thing only. I genuinely care for the way they do things more than others.i feel it wjen i sit at a european place. I find even the "ugly" buildings of the past beutiful and theres a sense of apprecition for it. That doesnt mean i hate other people.i like groups of people to varying degrees seemingly liking people genetically the closest to me.this isnt something i forced or anything.i just naturally feel more at ease. Its always been kinda weird in one aspect though. On a personal level in some way i think like some black people which i know since they seem to have a lot more common sense to me.i have adhd so thst might be why. U gebuinely have poor impulse co trol which kends itself to a certain mentality whites oftend condemn. On an even deeper level i think even closer to my mom and dad however they themselves arent really alike to each other at all. Ive noticed that my dad for example had very different views although still extremely mundane and perhaps even more "degenarate" than average.(in your view)However that became my 'normal'.so outside of this weird european "gay" thinking which was never present in my immidiate circles(weirdly enough,not even in high school or anything. The kids i remember were all far stronger in mentality and far less gay and passive agressive than the overall european view. I see them but i never really experienced them around me somehow,weird.)

Now i actually do have a thing against fungus in a way, but thats kinda irrelevant since its aside from anything here. With me its a double deal on race. I would protect but pull them up to my standards. Now i wasnt that advanced and basically a hypersexual straight guy so that means smarter,fitter,less gay. Had i been .had i been more  advanced it would be even stricter ofcourse.The occult aspects of dna only came known to me waaaay later and the fungus aspect even later than that. I was unsettled when i learned about the fungus mind you.(since i had already hated fungus by then) Until then i though what the world needed was simple eugenics.

Aslo with the whole race thing. In my view you could be emlightened to the point i dont understand which is why i dont bother thinking about if you are right or not.if you are way above me in that sense then ill see if i ever get there what you were saying. And from another view you were a demon in the physical anyway and thus not even really white so i would get it if you didnt feel the same way. However even that last part is kinda iffy since im not that ethereal in mindset to really understand the idea of somone looking like a human but not being one in terms of dna.If that makes me a retard then so be it. I can only be what i am.a human while being retarded might still have been ahead of 99.999 percent of people so it all depends. The elites have always seen like retards in ways i can actually comprehend rather fully and thats from my view which isnt even half as ethereal as what you your childhood to be.

A lot of what i do is basically what i always did but with "purity" added in it. Since it seems it is what is the correct thing.

 >>/9332/
Yes,i talk in multiple chamnels at once. I think its cause i learned to talk in real life first.it all makes semse, as an empathetic type i would have learned to talk with energy and words at the same time.snail specifically told me i talk using both at the same time and both need to to be used to decrypt the other . That might be why im so bad at telepathy compared to everything else.

 >>/9333/
> arabs and muslims

Arabs and russians.

 >>/9333/
Ok, I think I definitely know why telepathy isn't working. What you describe in this post here about racism and your view of it, not aimed at you directly, but this is something I at a deep level feel a strong instinctive negative reaction towards. When I hear someone express things like
> he people i grew up around are "white" and i like them
> I find even the "ugly" buildings of the past beutiful 
>  I do not believe in regular people(without rrligion) not being racist. If they are then to me that implies below insect level thinking.
This is part of some kind of meme-thought complex which is so disgusting and detestable to me, that I instantly want to kill the person who expressed these views. It's at a direct "autonomous nervous system" level, like a response coming automatically and even trying to look at the structure to write this post, my hands are literally shaking because there's a rage reaction building up inside me. I know I identified you as "brown hat" and they aren't like this, so this is some other DNA fragment if this is coming from within you and isn't something you picked up from the environment. But I think it isn't part of you, but really is a learned cultural meme.

Holding and expressing this kind of view makes me instantly feel that the person is below stupid, human trash who needs the nazi extermination camp treatment. That level of hate is my reaction when I hear about this kind of "pro white" talk. It's to me an expression of the least enlightened and most conceited narrowminded thinking someone could have. Line them up before a machine gun and kill them.

 >>/9336/
I do not believe in such a thing as "white people". It's a label made up by people of a certain category, anyone feeling comfortable using it in a manner where they beat the chest about their membership in this imaginary group, is a lower being, separated in some fundamental way from other humans.

It's not the mere skin colour description, but what is implied by someone calling themselves "white" as if it had other meanings attached to it.

 >>/9336/
When i say "ugly" i simply mean a regular old building. Instead of only the fancy ones. Think an old tavern by a grass field.
Although i cant think of many ugly building from the older time period anyway.
 >>/9337/
Its not really about feeling a part of them. I already said in terms of mentality im more distant from whites than a lot of others.I simply like the aesthetic,vibe.i think prior i did say i view them as 'meek' but we clearly disagree already on that front.

Maybe its something i learned then, i used to be very liberal as a kid until i realized it doesnt really work.maybe thats why its this bad? Since it comes from a negative experience.

I'm going to try analysing this meme complex now and nail down what it consists of so I can get rid of it. I've seen it before on people who went to Ukraine as volunteers to support "liberal western democracy". They're the same kind of people. German nazis weren't even "pro white", they didn't use these labels. It's not even legit national socialism, but some modern in-denial version of nazism with an added smugness to it, like they think they "figured it out" and have the solution to everything and it's being gay and supporting EU and hating muslims and nazis and Russia and China and everything that isn't some fake playground feminist lifestyle with a mini villa, soccer fandom and dog ownership, and telling everyone how good they are for doing this.

 >>/9339/
But im pretty pro china and never hated russia either. Ive always been against the eu since pretty much my whole life. Nothing really here sound like me. Thats a white elitist thing.

 >>/9340/
Anyways ill wait since im not sure what it is either.

 >>/9338/
I used to have this view that older architecture looked better and it was bad so much of it was taken down. But I've watched a lot of documentaries about these old cities in the later years, and looked at photos, taken part in the tartaria threads on /x/ and so on. Over time I realized, when thinking back at my actual experiences of these places in modern days, with modern buildings, and then comparing with old photos, when it's actual places I know. These areas, blocks in local cities that I found ugly in modern era, with the Internet now I can find location photos from the 1800s and early 1900s, and it turns out they were horrible. Dirty smelly rotting wooden cabins stacked against each other. When I started seeing this and the horrible energy of the places, I started sensing that; maybe my past me (you know who) had part in creating the new cities from the astral. I am a master of cities after all. Looking at the modern city structure and the general layout, even if concrete looks bad, the energy isn't bad. It has long straight lines and the dirt that used to be there before is lead away. It got better when modern ugly concrete was raised there.

Then there was that scene in "Who framed Roger Rabbit" when the unknown evil toon masked as a city official tells of his crazy idea to level toontown and instead build a high way with gas stations and shops everywhere. I realized that's literally me in the past life sense. 

In reality I'd hate toon town, I'd probably do that. I dislike modern travel and the traffic sound level. But it connected the world in ways only an insane person could have imaged 200 years ago. Without this, we'd have none of this, no Internet either.

 >>/9342/
Maybe i should show you the centre of my hometown and you would get it. I think its nice.(medivieval in nature)

I actually kinda agree in say london. I might lived a life there in poverty but even then it has a charm to it. I personally think 1990 is abput the best balance. A lot of the charm simply came from people not being online often.

 >>/9342/
Maybe the stone buildings left standing are better or i simply cant tell, i simply see what they look adn sound like. Hitler(yeah im bringing in nazis) had this picture of a town he liked. Its extremely similar to what i idealize.

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 >>/9343/
 >>/9344/
> Maybe the stone buildings left standing are better
That's what I meant to say. Everyone brings up pic related from Germany and Poland, saying "look how nice these buildings are", but the reason they remain in the first place is that they were built from bricks and stone. They didn't rot. They're also small scale houses with a functionality that remains.

Poland in specific has many of these that were left in place during communist times, simply because they were good enough. They had no reason to demolish them.

The other example is the transformation of Stockholm around Sergel Square. Everyone's here bashing the demolition wave in the 1960s, but they forget it's now an international commercial center and a hub for visitors from all over the world. What was there before weren't any nice small scale houses, it was just ill fitted mass produced large scale buildings that didn't serve any purpose.

 >>/9345/
funny example, lets just say the second pic is pretty much what it looks like where i live, bruge itself is kind of a tourist town but those kind of european marketplaces and places is what i like, there's something "peace" about it for me.

I also specifically like a lot of polish cities, architecturally.


Yeah, i think i just have a hard time vibing with modern stuff in general, its funny cause im a 'nerd" and was into tech more than most but i never feel at home in anything modern...Like i couldn't live close to those highways, i get that perhaps the energy is technically cleaner but it makes me feel insane just even looking at it.

 >>/9345/
If i think back,the happiest moments of my live where probably in energetically "dirty" areas. I simply never got bothered by it.

 >>/9346/
 >>/9347/
Some people may like the feel of the older example of Stockholm above, but look at the energy and it's just a dead end of evil, concentrated into a mass where it can't escape. It would need an outlet because what's there is just the pit at the bottom of hell manifested. It's sewage concentrated into something even worse than dung, because dung would be fertilizer, this is just toxic waste. I haven't looked in specific, but going by what I've seen on other photos, the reason Europe was bombed so much during the wars was probably to burn up those energy concentrations. They're the result of centuries of rotten monarchy.

The new architecture is to install a sewage system, which leads the energy away. No one would like to live next to an open sewer, but would you rather live next to an open manure silo that isn't being used, but just filled more and more?

Highways are the second next to the worst, but it's better than the worst because it doesn't lead to uncontrollable destruction.

 >>/9348/
What does a water treatment planr rhem so wnwrgetically?

What?

Anyway I feel like i got cleansed talking here lately.

Dream time.(yes i accidentally fell asleep in the evening) so i fell asleep with my hand under my neck, for some reason this leads to a guaranteed nightmare for me.

So im in this city in a way too small apartment, theres about 3 small one room apartments with each a tenant.

I'm living in one of them and i get evicted. However my stuff was still inside it when i left and they don't let me go back to gather my items. Another tenant faces the same thing and we get really angry. what they did was technically legal in a contract sort of way so there is little i can do at this time.

I go down to the lobby and theres a secret service feeling people with handguns. I go bonkers and start shooting everyone with headshots while moving quickly. Some girl with black hair is trying to kill my sister with a knife. I instantly kill her with a headshot. All hostiles cleared.

My sister however is angry that I traumatized her and acts like the victim even though i just saved her life, completely oblivious to whats going down and acting entitled. I immidiatly shove her in one of those semi open closet things that hang on the wall and tell her to be quiet. my feeling is of rage.

Anyway there seems to be this rule to include famida in my dreams since you posted so much about her so a guy stands next to me(can't see them) but again it "feels" like its supposed to be boardowner. I see a huge "video" of famida having sex with some unnamed dude. The person next to me says that he found out she is also a pornstar and seems very interested in this. I feel neutral watching and im wondering what boardowner is trying to communicate to me.Its already one thing that they know this fact but why show me?

afterwards some other guy seems to be looking at the tik tok videos she makes and tells me(this is very subtle and barely happening telepathically but its being talked to me in the background) "yeah i can see it, she is kinda cute in a way. i get what you are saying." even though i never said anything like that.

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 >>/9353/
This feels backwards in multiple ways, while the information is jumbled it may not be totally wrong. Maybe it's just information leaking in, or it's glowies making a mess. I mean here specifically whatever is left in Israel, they're out of their minds right now and I don't know who else is really left to cause problems. Third day in a row they attack UN forces, this time they used tanks to breach the perimeter of a UN base and Netanyahu told the UN to withdraw, despite them being there on a UN mandate which means 50 countries are behind that UN force.

They're really testing the thin ice here. Just before, a Hizbollah drone came through the iron dome, killed 10 Israelis and injured 40. Sounds like a "warning" from their allies not to push it, supposedly there was also no air alarm going off. Maybe they turned it off so show them what happens if their allies get tired of them.

The UN are another alien group who appear as "punk clowns" or jesters with colourful balloons. They're powerful and should not be messed with, just yesterday they appeared on tv in the form of UN representative giving stern speeches on the behaviour of Israel.

Time in the future parallel seems to be moving again, but at intervals. Compared to "here" at least, which is the "lack-of-time" line of having dimensions contained at Gensokyo.

This morning I was shown this dream scene: I opened the fridge and the mini freezer box at the top was open, water was everywhere. I checked the temperature and it showed something like 14 Celsius. It's not broken is it? Then I thought, this is a dream, this fridge isn't broken for real.
I took a cloth and wiped off the water, and it was instantly dry. I looked inside and saw a frozen pizza. After taking it out, where was lots of water, and I saw two double packages of hot-dogs.

After I woke up, the witch asked me what I thought the dream meant?
I said, after thinking, that pizza means Italy, so the water and the two sausage packets must refer to the remaining land mass of Europe, which is Italy and Greece, and they look like two narrow sausages on the map. It was flooded, but has dried up?
She said, that's it.

But after thinking about this, I realized, that this also represents how the future manifests into the dream state, and that living in this "lack-of-time" line is like a dream, so things are the same as they should be, but very distorted. Europe is a broken fridge flooded with water, and only pizza and two sausages remain.

 >>/9381/
Maybe its weird to ask but can you ask astra where i would do well based on my deepest inner nature.

 >>/9381/
Meanwhile, the Famida timeline would make itself known at intersections only, and I have no way of knowing how much time actually passed in between each time. I think the point of entry is when there are no time gaps anymore. Afterall, getting into my current life took almost 5 months counting from birth. We're not there yet, if assuming time moves at the "same speed" although making jumps to play up important events for me to make decisions in them where it seems to move faster. If the timeframe was the same, it would take another month or so.

All I know is that when I make decisions, they come through. Everything in between must be running like an NPC with no effort in some subconscious part, really speaks for how little awareness is needed to function in society if the environment is decent.

Did some things that shouldn't be mentioned on here, but others that can be, among them a ritual activation. These witches really know how to arrange things, and no one is objecting to requests that really wouldn't go through in other settings. Same for other "arrangements". 
It's more of an attitude difference, or maybe there isn't, Idk. Maybe this is how I come through at any time, I just don't feel like that currently. But it's true that I don't care about other's views, when I need something I will have it. 
I just realized the "sprint" I did in esoteric terms back in 2018 - 19 to finish off the Illuminati, the breakthrough was made at a time I was aware of, but didn't at the time feel was so significant in early summer of '19. But after that point there was no way for them to oppose me and win, no matter what resources they threw at me, it would be worn down, and every one thing would serve to expose their methods to me and function like a harsh training program for me in how to subdue them.

The viraltard aliens who caused most of the resistance, after getting them registered as "exploitable" with the federation, I went on to map them more.

 >>/9383/
> he viraltard aliens who caused most of the resistance, after getting them registered as "exploitable" with the federation, I went on to map them more.
It turns out they are a kind of being who manifest in large hives, and they start creating a race of low level humanoids, imitating insectoid greys. At every moment, and every step ahead, they die in large numbers, but some remain, and those always think of themselves as "successful and invincible". Those that die just die and won't think anything, they'll just go to hell. This way they build up a race of low level scum who just stumble on, relying on their numbers, and they abuse and use anything they can find. And they see themselves as "whites" (compare "greys"). At the endpoint of their DNA development, they are then destroyed, their race is eliminated and everyone is sent to a very long gehenna process of several billion years. Because that's how evil they are.
But they also lack learning ability, so after being punished, they start rising up again and will manifest again. They will recreate their insectiod grey-imitating race, and repeat the process, again thinking they are successful while dying in large numbers. Everyone will again end up in hell for billions of years, and their race is detroyed. Then after a very long time, they just manifest again and repeat it. 

They never learn, never stop, they always get punished, they always think they are successful, they always die like flies, and they always complain about the punishment.

That's all there is to it. 

So that's why they can be used as a resource, they'll just suffer and destroy things over and over anyway, so we can use them as slaves instead and make use of them.

 >>/9382/
> where i would do well based on my deepest inner nature
Astra can't see your deepest inner nature, it's concealed.

 >>/9385/
Alright.

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So much happened, and I learned a lot, but still feel severely stuck.
Synchronicities are abounding left and right, it's like threads and patterns of destiny slowly move me, yet it always appears like I'm sucked back into my routine.
Is my focus lacking? Yes, definitely. But it's difficult to remain focussed, while in a human body, in a human world. Only me to blame, however.
What became of this whole blood anon and Alyssa phenomenon?
I've met a few fascinating characters in real life, projections and dreams. Learned and practiced quite a bit about inner alchemy and immortals, being humble in the face of my own immense ignorance and foolishness. Yet, truly "awakened" manifested magic, freedom and vampirism is so far away still. It's effective, but subtle and elusive in the eyes of the waking world. Breaching the barrier between dreams and "reality", subjective and objective, remains difficult. Patience, diligence and focus. Any advice, if you get what I'm getting at? Otherwise, I wish you all the best.

 >>/9392/
I get what you are saying, but I can't tell you how to do it. You have to breach the barrier for yourself personally. I can't even fully say when I did, or if it was there at all in the sense I perceive it for you. Maybe it was always weak or had cracks for me, so that I could always see beyond it, and the walking over the threshold was a gradual process, rather than one of awakening all at once.

I don't know if this works for anyone else, but it does for me and some I know, where the answer is to just blur the border, or ignore it. Fantasy and reality are the same thing if the fantasy is well tuned enough with the things out there.

> when vampire parents hold "the talk"
> so, we need to talk about, murdering people in the street...

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I'll just post there here and you can try to understand what I mean. It seems the reason why vampire cultivation is so slow but also so powerful, is because of this set-up: the vampire needs to "remain at 0D" which is a level beyond time and space. To reach the basic enlightenment level, it must thus be viewed from an extremely high plane (does not perhaps require full enlightenment at that plane, but it may require guidance from someone at that plane) which understands the "level" differently.

What the pink orb actually does, is to give access to the vampire library of astral grimoires. This interaction will help in producing the basic form of the white spike which appears at vampire Arhat, because the grimoires contain knowledge at 8D and can be used to pinpoint the "vampire 0D" from up there. Just reaching out intuitively can make this possible, but a more structured approach would be to have the guidance of someone who's actually at 8D, which I found that Padmavati from Jainism is, then use this perspective provided to see how the vampire planes relate.
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 >>/9437/
Theoretically, this would mean that vampire Bodhisattva would require regular Bodhisattva + 5 levels above to fulfill e.i. level 10D.

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Coincidence...?

I think I know now what we are "waiting for" and how this will have to happen, for those who will not be part of the future Earth in their current persona.

Since that includes me, I've had to work on solving this. Not because I "care" about how it's done, but just because I need it done finally so I can move into my new incarnation which is already ready "out there".

I already saw that my current persona and the surrounding area exists on the new Earth, and I've been replaced by a newly summoned Genso-cat. The timeline had to be reversed one year and a different path chosen, played by that cat, to include my persona into the future Earth as is. The cat also has significantly different abilities than me, most notably a lot more physically muscular, which fits in because I do train both ashtanga yoga and weight lifting, it was just necessary for the new timeline there to have someone with a much higher focus on those things to fit into the new society, which is a lot more physically demanding in this geographical area. People around don't know how much I train, or how I really look as I normally wear baggy clothes, so revealing a "muscle monster" would not be out of the realm of possibility as seen from other's view.

But this brings up the question of how my current timeline/history path would end, as it doesn't move into the future. The technicality of it has to be finished. For some others on here, it seems set on Europe sinking, but I do not live in an area set to sink.
It appears my solution is to have the timeline end in my own Earth sphere which I created previously and moved into back in August when things started going astray on the main Earth. So I'll detach completely from the common Earth, time ends and my nearest area is maintained as a "practice site" in a timeless dimension of my private Earth sphere. Then there is nothing more to do than to move on, which is already set up with a clear path as I've worked on this with Amdusias down to the last detail, to after leaving here move step by step to the locations where things need to be dealt with (which includes my different astral constructs and HQs where things may need to be handled along the way).

 >>/9456/
I have a few more months left,seemingly.