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> sometimes I feel pretty optimistic, other times I'm horribly pessimistic. it makes me wonder if I may be bipolar. it's like one moment I feel like everything's going to be more or less okay, like I'll be able to survive by renting out the houses even if I couldn't work, eventually I'll meet at least a couple decent people IRL, start working on a project or maybe even sign up for uni, etc, and then the next moment I can't stop thinking I'm a pathetic impotent little failure and other people will never see me as anything but innately inferior waste and I was always destined to be a mere stereotype with no real agency to speak of and that even if I was successful neither other people nor life in general could ever give me what I need from them and... well I could go on for a few paragraphs but I think that's the gist of it
If you look at the positives, you are not in such a bad situation right now. You have a place to live, roof over your head, food, internet, etc. You are in the perfect spot where to learn some skill or get good at something that you can use in the future to make money or get yourself out of the area where you live if that's what your dream or goal is