>>/115470/
I told her to get off of 4chan, we ended up talking in private, our dms were general pretty tame, I made it clear I didn't want to groom her, but I did try to talk to her about her not going on 4chan because it's very obvious it's not good for her, I was under the impression she was fairly knew to the whole e-girl thing, our conversations were fairly mundane, I won't lie and say I never had any thoughts I'm not proud of or even that I didn't let somethings slip in our conversations, though I tried to be careful what I said, more or less.
I've said a lot of stupid shit when randos have confronted me, I saw my child in her, she was like a sister to me, she was my FP, etc, etc, but truth is, I'm not 100% sure why, but being around her made me want to be a more wholesome person, she really comforted a darkness inside of me, or however you want to word that.
I'll sit here and say that I didn't see her in a sexual light, but nobody wants to believe that, which fair enough, I'm a massive womanizer, a manipulative douche, my behavior is obviously maladaptive, and there are several other glaring red flags about me. I get that I wear the person I am deep down like a badge of honor on these types of sites.
And Puka, I don't really need to say shit about Puka, her legacy speaks for itself.
I think we both just found a lot of comfort in each others company, and we both just felt safe, the fact the I knew I had to treat her differently than i do with other women allowed me to appreciate her for the person she was, or at least that I thought she was.
Now, I eventually found out she was getting groomed by a particularly disgusting and dangerous person, and I didn't take that well. My reaction was visceral, because in my mind, I needed to keep her safe from him.
She didn't seem to take that well. Which sure, when you're been conditioned to see pedrophilia as acceptable my actions just come off as me viciously bullying a seriously mentally ill person.
Doesn't help that i kind of snapped at her when I found out as well.
Bingo bango, before I know it, I'm getting accused of being a groomer.
That's it. That's the story. Believe it or don't.
>>/115475/
Honest reason I've gone with it this long is because you people are almost familiar to me. I grew up in an extremely abusive household with two EXTREMELY mentally ill degenerate women who hated men and constantly made their bullshit my problem. I'm extremely used to being this horrible monster, even when I am doing my absolute best to try and do the right thing.
I guess I just wanted the nostolgia, but I'm not comofortable dragging Puka into this on any real level aside from fake backstories and the like. So yeah, I'm kind of done with the act.
It's been fun.